[sparkling]

Today was totally $hitty. They didn't even bother to wake me up for the Christmas dinner. Found only a note when I finally woke up "Merry Christmas. Your present is in the living room. Mom and Frank. I'll be back on Tuesday evening." F***! Yeah, they are going to be oh-so-merry! Luckily the cat didn't go anywhere so I have someone to talk to. Anyway, being alone is better than being with them so I should be glad. The problem is I am not. Very not. Anyone in similar situation?

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((Sparkling))))))))))))))))))) It seems there is nothing lonlier than being alone on Christmas. I am sorry that you are alone right now and I understand how awful that can feel. Know that you have friends here. I am glad the cat is there with you. I know I hugged my dogs when I was alone. Please take care of yourself.

[sparkling]

Thanks. Right back at you! ((((((( Bipolar_bear ))))))) We ate a cake (I took the sponge part and he the cream ) and he's gone to sleep. I think I'm going to turn in as well. Happy Holiday, Everyone!

[PasDeDeux]

(((Sparkling)))) I cannot say I relate I have never had to spend Christmas alone. I am sorry you did I did once spend Thanksgiving alone and it was so very painful. I know too that sometimes being with people you don't like or who fight and such can be awful too. I am glad you had time with kitty. I love my pets too

Merry Christmas

[Wants2Fly]

Hi Sparkling -- This is my second Christmas alone. It is at least partly by choice, as I don't do anything to make myself available to celebrate with others. I have an illness that is not debilitating enough to qualify for SSI, but is aggravated when I work full-time, which I have to do to support myself. It has been flaring for a few months. So I am laying back, watching TV, feeding myself well, cleaning up some mess that I haven't had the strength to see to while working a 40-hour week. So happy to be a teacher and have this paid time off.

Perhaps this year, I'll have enough energy to build a social support network of friends for myself. But for right now, I just need this time to refresh myself and get stronger.

I am self-sufficient, and I am okay with my own company -- an introvert who gains energy from inner world, unlike extroverts who gain energy by being in the world. So perhaps this is a little easier for me.

I hope you find comfort in your online friendships and your pets.

hi, sparkling. due to driving problems and such, my friend isn't going to make it here in time for dinner. so, i'm just hanging out...waiting for the basketball game...so i can scream at Kobe and hopefully The Heat will win even though Shaq is hurt....

i got up and opened presents (got some really cool ones) and am now going to go out and get wet cat food. three cats have had to have CPR already this a.m. obviously, something in their system shuts down if they go twelve hours without it.

i hope your time goes better now and give the kitty a kiss from me..........xoxoxox pat

[(JD)]

I couldn't respond completely and when you first posted and I feel sorry for that... I was upset with your language that aptly displayed your upset, and I was upset because I was sensing your upset so! (also I was having a sit-in protest, but let's not get into my angst right now )

I am alone this Christmas. I mean ALONE IRL.

My wonderful T helped me learn to treat it as "just another day." Of course it isn't really, but operating from that perspective has probably kept me alive. It would be a "good" time to become overly depressed, if there is such a thing with depression.

Please take care of yourself. This, too, shall pass.

[EJ711]

Hi Sparkling,

Can you see me smiling at you through your computer screen?

Christmas brings up images of being with family, and when we don't have family or the family we have doesn't meet our emotional needs, it is just plain hard.

Here's a Christmas hug for you -

(((((((((((((((((Sparkling))))))))))))))))))))

Merry Christmas!! Passing you a cranberry shortbread cookie to you also.

EJ

[sparkling]

Hey guys, it's so nice to wake up and find such a bunch of replies from you. It's not my first Christmas alone so it's not so unusual for me.

(((((( PasDeDeux )))))) Give your pets a pat from me

(((((( Wants2Fly )))))) I'm an introvert myself and I rather like my isolation. And it's my choice as well so I don't really have the right to complain. Several years ago my mother asked if it's all right that she spends Christmas with her bf and I said it's fine. And it's really fine that they are not here, I just wish someone was. Not even a Christmas tree here.

((((( Fayerody ))))) My cat must be really sick of it, he's currently the only recipient of my affections. He's all disheveled from my messing with his fur and wet from the kisses LOL Poor baby. Kiss your kitties from me too, ok?

((((( Sky ))))) Sorry for my language, I didn't mean to offend anyone. Thanks for replying. Hang in there.

((((( Jane ))))) The cookie was delicious, thanks Take care

sparkling

[desirae]

Sorry to hear that Sparkling, I know what you mean. Enjoy the day off, relax, watch some old Christmas movies, and enjoy some good cookin. Don't let the people in your life effect you negatively on a day like Christmas okay. I hope you enjoy the rest of the night.

[Meme]

this is my first post, altho I joined a few weeks ago. It has been a bad day for me. kids treated me shi**y and I have cried all day. Some Christmas. Can't come out of the doom and gloom feeling. I had just started to taper off some of my meds, but now i wish I hadn't. I have just started to read thru some of the recent posts. bye for now

[(JD)]

Please tell your doctor your feelings and perhaps he won't taper you off them...but put them back to the strength they were working for you? TC

[Meme]

well, I kind of did it myself, thinking I was doing ok. I am still not comfortable with my diagnosis, I guess. But everytime I go off my meds, I end up worse off, an then say I won't do it again, but always I think I am strong enough and not bi-polar, but i am supposed to see the doc on the 5th of January. I have been crying all day, my kids hurt my feelings by not coming or calling (only 2 did) and didn't get to see any of my six grandchildren, so all in all it has been a bad day and now I have been thinking that it all isn't worth it, next year -no tree, no going through the trouble of knitting and quilting all the homemade gifts, no lights, and then I think I wouldn't expect anything, you know? Thank you for answering me back. Does this forum have the place to set it so I will have email notification of replies to a thread I am watching?

yes, go to your profile and you will find that notification.........

welcome........sorry the kids weren't nice. family can be like that.
i'd do the tree and stuff next year for myself. i'm alone this year and i did the whole hog. my livingroom is fantastic! do it for yourself. pooh on them killing your Christmas spirit.

woman, don't quit your meds..........accept your DX and move forward. there ain't a thing we can do about our DXs except comply and help ourselves...........xoxoxo pat

[Meme]

I know I should accept my DX, but I think sometimes that I don't need it, and even tho I know that is the disease or whatever causing me to think that, I convince myself that I can do without the meds, you know?

I used to love Christmas. Even my husband is upset today, so I know it is not just my depression/bp

[Meme]

btw, thanks for writing back to me

[sparkling]

Hey Meme, welcome to PC. You'll find lots of supportitive people here. I'm sorry to hear you are upset. Hope you'll feel better soon.

(((( Desirae )))) Thanks.

So they are back *sigh*. I woke up today because of their yelling. I hate my life and this place. Maybe an UFO happens to pass by and picks me up on it's way... who knows.

[Meme]

Thank you so much! Everyone here has been great!

[Boopers]

Hi Sparkling,

I'm so sorry you spent Christmas alone. I'm also sorry to the rest of you that also had to spend it alone.
I have been very lucky in my life as I have never had to endure that situation.
I'm sending you all great big hugs

(((((((((((((((((((Everyone who spent Christmas alone))))))))))

sparkling, another poster here and i own a whole team of Space Monkeys.. we use them frequently for all types of emergencies........ ............want us to run them by your house and whisk you out of there?????????? xoxoxo pat

[sparkling]

Back to you (((((((( Boopers ))))))))
Yeah, Fayerody, send'em here right away!! Just make sure they have some grub on board, I'm starving.