[wisewoman]

I am infuriated that after being here faithfully for at least three years, this is what I get when life pulls me away. I feel like I am dying. I can't walk well, can't retrieve words, can't organize. I am in so much pain I really don't know what to do. My friend, my friend whose family has also been my family, has been through a lot. 17 year old shot himself in head and without all of the drama, died about a month later. now another family member trying to die, he is ill.

[Raynaadi]

Wisewoman....I am sorry that you feel like you aren't getting support. What can we do?

[snowflake_48888]

((((((((((((wisewoman)))))))))))))) I am sorry you are going through so much. It's very difficult to focus when so much is going on. I can not relate to the physical pain that you have but I can relate to the inner pain that you feel. At one time I placed my pain and trust in my earthly friends and they turned their back on me. I realized over the years that my hurts and pains are with MY God where I am no longer rejected.

I am truly sorry for the pain and if I can help in some way please let me know....
Snow

[darkeyes]

(((((((((( wisewoman ))))))))))

i'm here for you. you've got my e.mail and i will help you any way that i can.

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((wisewoman)))))))))))))))))))))))))

[Maven]

I'm sorry you're in such pain and going through so much. ((((((((((((((((wisewoman))))))))))))))))))))

[bebop]

(((wise))) I hope they can find your problem soon hon. I am very sorry for your loss.

[Soidhonia]

Hello WW.
I hope you feel better soon. You are not alone you are welcome to PM anytime. Take care Soidhonia

[mlyn]

((((((((((((((wisewoman)))))))))))))))))))

[okiedokie]

Wise,
I'm so sorry you are suffering. It sounds as if you've got WAY too much pain in your life right now. You are in my thoughts and prayers. If ever you think I might be able to provide you with some support, please don't hesitate to ask.
Take care,
Okie

[Wants2Fly]

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Dear Wisewoman -- I am very concerned by your post. I'm not sure what you mean. What is the "this is what I get"? What happened? I am assuming that it happened here at the forums, but I feel so lost about how to respond.

Anger is the first response to loss, according to Kubler-Ross, and you have suffering loss in so many ways. The most challenging must be living with extreme pain, as you are doing.

I wish I could do more than say that I care.

WW, sour cream cookies and tons of love........xoxoxo pat

[__zh]

ww

the ups and downs of online life can be hard especially when one has given so much over so long and then returns in need with the [possible] perception of only a few eyes or ears being there for you.

it isn't indicative of how fond ppl are of you. some folks just aren't posting right now, others (like us) have had computer problems making logging in difficult, and yet others might be in too dark a hole to even type a response.

it sounds very hard right now w/ all you have going on IRL around you. that would be a lot for anyone, let alone someone dealing w/ their own health and pain issues.

things have not been easy out this way in our world. wanted to let you know we saw your post and this is what we're able to offer in response.

keep taking care. remember that it can help to keep your support network wide and varied so that you're able to find the specific kinds of support you need when you most need them.

blessings and hope for you ww.

I am sorry you are dealing with so much pain. You have a lot and a lot on your plate.

I wish some doctor would give you something to relieve you from that physical pain. I hope they will soon.

Emotional pain is also very very hard to deal with. Do you have a close person you can talk with about all this pain?

Please don't lose hope. (((((((((WW)))))))))

[(JD)]

Sorry that I missed your ONE post in a long time, but it being in General is why.... I just can't read the posts in General forum like I used to, since there is so much hodge podge (for my brain) and I need to confine my reading to categories I can deal with right now. (((hugs))) We have a Chronic Pain Forum here now, and that's where I look for your posting. Did you get my PM also? I have been worried about you.

Pain is horrible, I agree. It also accents everything else, and taints it negatively. But some of what you are being aware of IRL is negative, and I'm sorry for that.

Striking out at your friends here might only make some of them shy away from you...and I know you don't mean to do that. I think you will find that you have been receiving support... but I understand how intense pain can blind us at times.

Also, there are so many new members joining here each DAY and so many new posts... those who are not fast readers, or who don't have a lot of time to spend here, just aren't able to cover the number of threads like they used to. I'm sorry you have taken the circumstances to heart, both here and IRL... try and withdraw some from taking so much so personally... and concentrate on managing your pain so you can begin to enjoy life some again. TC

[Wants2Fly]

Thank, zh and sky, for helping me to better understand what WW meant. I am not here much, not like before, so I wasn't sure if something had flared up on another thread of in chat . . .

Wisewoman, I am very sorry that you felt you didn't get enough love and hugs and prayers and good thoughts in response to your pain.

I have missed you, but I was gone for so long (18-20 months) that there are many new names and old names gone.

(((((((((((((((WiseWoman)))))))))))))))

I pray there is relief for you.

[wisewoman]

Okay friends, here is the now reality. I had wanted both posts to be deleted as I was just darned mad. The person chose to meld the two together. Okay. I had made a choice to leave here in a forever way. Sky, no recollection of your p.m. I had a kid, close to me and related to my friend shoot himself. I have a severe illness causing more pain. Not yet labeled. it stinks. I hurt. Sorry I behaved---"inappropriate" for the forums. I am doing everything I possibly can. Pat, think your email is missing. email me at home.