I am so confused what is going on with me

I am really confused today I am feeling super sad and depressed and I don't have depression or anything really.. I just feel so sad about nothing. This has happened a few times before. I have this feeling in my stomach like something is wrong and I feel guilty about stupid things I've done years ago. I feel so crappy and kind of angry for no reason! I feel guilty that Im on this website because I feel like I'm just TRYING to find something wrong with me and I mainly came on because of a bad experience with a natural disaster making me on edge with nightmares but I feel like now this "Trauma" is totally invalid. I feel like I blow everything out of proportion... Am I being to draumatic or something? I am so confused with what's going on. Im jumpy and tired too. What is going on with me? What should I do Please someone help me

Sorry you are feeling so distraught. There is a way through this. Have you considered talking to your therapist about this or your psychiatrist to adjust your meds?

For me exercising every day helps. I include yoga because it coordinates breathing and movement (vinyasa) and generates a lot of vitality. Depression is a lack of vitality so yoga is what I counter that with.

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Hello August 7682: Well, first of all, please don't feel guilty about being here. There are all sorts of people here for all sorts of reasons. Your reason is as valid as anyone else's. You know... I sense allot of depression & discouragement around in general recently. There is SO MUCH bad news out there. Just this morning I was reading about the aftermath of the earthquake in Nepal, flooding in the Tamil Nadu region in India, & of course the latest terrorist attacks, & the ongoing war in Syria. I don't know how other people are feeling. But, I must say, all of it is certainly adding to my own depression. Oh... & then, of course, it's the darkest time of the year right now where I live.

Personally, I feel guilty & stupid about things I've done in the past all of the time. It's a constant thing with me. Sometimes I think I can conjure up a bad memory for each & every situation that arises day-to-day. Sometimes I catch myself doing this & realize that the thing I'm obsessing over actually occurred almost half a century ago! It's just crazy. But I can't help it.

So what I would say is that what you're experiencing is not all that out of the ordinary. It is probably a mixture of depression (maybe some of it seasonal?), & anxiety. And of course, if you're not sleeping this just makes matters seem all that much worse. Perhaps the natural disaster you mentioned is also having some lingering effects of which you are not consciously aware. There aren't really any easy answers for any of this. Some individual therapy might be helpful. There's meditation, physical exercise, and other such stuff. The thing is, from my perspective, to borrow a teaching from the Buddha... nothing is hidden. There are no "secrets" out there of which you are unaware. The available remedies are all in plain view for all to see. It's simply a matter to trying different things until you find something that works for you. I wish you well...

Im not on meds and I don't see a therapist

Thank You so much. I really appreciate it.

Sounds like pretty typical depression, maybe some anxiety too. I definitely tend to dwell on past bad experiences when I'm feeling bad.
How frequently does this happen to you? Did it just start recently?
I had been off anti-depressants for a few years and thought I didn't need them anymore, but last winter I noticed I was feeling depressed a lot of the time, and even when not depressed, I just wasn't "happy." I didn't even consider the time of year until spring came and I walked outside on a sunny day and felt like I was waking up from a long sleep. I was able to feel content without anything good happening, I was just happy to "be" again.
If you usually feel like this at this time of year, it could be seasonal affective disorder. Getting less sunlight can mess you up sometimes.

This time in particular I have noticed it more, but now that I think about it, the anxiety I've had in the past is pretty bad, but I've never had much of a problem with depression. Usually it gets really bad when I'm alone, but when I am with other people it starts to go away. Its like this odd, dull ache in my stomach as if something is wrong, or like having an aching sadness. I would say this has been off and on since October, but more recently bad the past 2 weeks. I think you are right about it possibly being seasonal.

I honestly wish I had the courage to talk to my parents. I've never been to therapy, or taken medication but I honestly think it would help. Talking and asking questions on this website is the most I've ever done, and I just feel like if I tell my parents I want to try to get help, they might think I'm over exaggerating or something. This anxiety/depression thing has definitely gotten worse over the last few months, and I wonder if it has to do with the lightening incident giving me "ptsd like symptoms." I've never been to a doctor for mental health, and I've never been diagnosed with anything, so I just get confused with myself a lot.

Thanks for the reply.

PTSD is a normal reaction to abnormal events. If something traumatic happened to you, then your body is reacting as it sees fit. If you've been having symptoms for this long, then its probably a good idea to see a professional. PTSD isn't one of those things that just gets better over time....that is, if symptoms have been lasting awhile. The truth is that most people get over a traumatic event within a few months (or aren't even effected at all). The rest of us....well, we need some sort of outside intervention in order to get back on track. The sooner you can reach out to your parents or another trusted adult, then the sooner you can get into treatment. You may not have PTSD (that would be a good thing), but that doesn't mean you aren't suffering the after-effects of a traumatic event. Good luck! (oh, and you can post on the PTSD board, too....even if you don't have a diagnosis, it sounds like you definitely have PTSD symptoms. You may get more feedback over there.)