[Chocopiano27]

I just graduated from an all girl high school yesterday. And i regret everything that i did since 7 years ago, involving school and friendship.

I have low self esteem, i look outgoing, cheerful and loud for some people, and rude to 'popular' and 'dominant' people (because i suddenly freeze and become awkward around them).
I love social media, like ig and snapchat. And when i saw my friends posts of graduation day, and how they upload happy looking pictures with their gang of friends, i felt really depressed. I really want a group of girls i can hang out with, very badly. My hands have been shaking this whole day, only because of thinking of all that.

The thing is.. I also have quite lots of friends. And idk but some people told me, i have lots of fans (my juniors). But i still think of myself as a loser, and i'm never comfortable with myself to the extent i want to get over this life. I want to be them so badly, i want to have friends i can have fun with. I want to enjoy my youth. I'm always afraid looking at ig and snapchat because i know my day can suddenly become ruined, for an unclear reason. The question is, why?... i really don't understand

Btw, please don't say that i'm overthinking about all of this.. I tried lots of things to fix this, believe me i went to therapist and all that. They all just say i'm fine. The thing is, this emotion only happen when i encounter or see my school friends, it's like a i have trauma or something i'm not fully aware of. Anxiety mixed with broken hearted feelings, deep regret, guilt, lonelyness, etc. This emotion is also stuck with me for over 6 years, currently i'm really fed up by my own emotions because i just couldn't control it.

[Travelinglady]

I have learned to stay away from such things. Remember that they can be a way of bragging. I'd say their lives aren't as wonderful as they try to make them appear.

[Boatie McBoatface]

Hi, Chocopiano. Remember that most people don't post photos on social media of events where they're feeling down or crappy. Everyone only posts the positive ones, so it can lead people who view the photos to think everyone's life is better than theirs. My therapist calls this "compare and despair." It might be worthwhile disabling your account for a few days or a week to see if you feel any better, and reaching out to your friends on the telephone (the old fashioned way, I know).

[CherryLipbalm]

Best selfies are the moments where you are taking care of you. Best validation is the one you give to yourself. Remember that

Originally Posted by Boatie McBoatface

...Remember that most people don't post photos on social media of events where they're feeling down or crappy. Everyone only posts the positive ones, so it can lead people who view the photos to think everyone's life is better than theirs.

Absolutely! And it's easy to fake happy selfies.

I completely cut back on my social media. I deleted everything except Facebook and even then I cut it back to only friends I actually know personally and care about. This forum is about as close to getting wrapped up in social media as I have.

I say delete for a while. You can always reinstall.

I also like the advice to try good old fashioned talking on the phone.

[CherryLipbalm]

Originally Posted by justafriend306

Absolutely! And it's easy to fake happy selfies.

I completely cut back on my social media. I deleted everything except Facebook and even then I cut it back to only friends I actually know personally and care about. This forum is about as close to getting wrapped up in social media as I have.

I say delete for a while. You can always reinstall.

I also like the advice to try good old fashioned talking on the phone.

I've cut back on social media too. No more interactions on facebook for me. I know how to be in touch with the people that matters to me, i don't need facebook to keep in touch with them. Now I get to live my life the way I always wanted to and stop trying to acquire things that I actually don't want. Social media and Internet can be addicting because you get to express yourself and you don't have to be so PC. I love exploring unpopular opinions and being different, so I always get drawn to causes or philosophies that represented that. I feel like i definitely got my fix in that regard so I'm done with it now...I played around too much, now it's time to focus on more important stuff. That's personally how I feel right now.