[sickofscreaming]

Please help me. I've been diagnosed with major depression and anxiety NOS. However, I can tell there's something that hasn't been diagnosed. I looked at schizophrenia, but when mentioning this to my therapist, she brushed it off, saying that I didn't go through the isolation stage. (Honestly, she hasn't known me for that long. I went through that stage before I met her.) Because she brushed me off, I've been scared to say anything else. Does anyone know what this sounds like so I can at least start researching?

I hear things, but not regularly. It's stuff like voices, sometimes music, and ringing. This doesn't happen too often.

I go through basic moods extremely quickly on any normal day. I go between sad, suicidal, hyper, happy, okay, and violent. These moods never last long, and they're all extremely intense. They can easily be altered through little things such as music, certain classes, certain people, situations and stress. My mood could go from hyper to violent in a walk from one class to the other.

I'm violent. There are certain things that annoy me to the point where I have to hurt myself in some way so I don't hurt anyone else. I'm waiting for the day I snap and overkill someone, thanks to my obsession with gore. I'm disgusting.

I'm paranoid. I have this fascination with the world ending. (Not only that, but I'm a bit of a conspiracy theorist.) I love destruction and death and the idea of a broken down society. I prepare myself for this kind of stuff to the point where I see everything as proof of humanity's end. This probably isn't my mental illness talking, but I'll put it on here anyways.

My ideas, opinions, and goals change all the time, almost as frequently as my mood. Enough said.

I'm 15, genderfluid (biologically female), and white if that helps at all.

Thank you to anyone who actually took the time to read this. I'm sorry for taking up your time.

[TishaBuv]

You're 15. That in itself is a difficult age- hormones, confusion, not a kid/ not an adult.

You're genderfluid. I had to look that up. Also hard to deal with, especially at 15.

Are you doing any drugs? If so, that's adding more to the mix.

Then there's the cultural influence, the violent gaming and anime culture. I went through a punk phase in my generation.

So after these factors come the psychological issues. Personally, I think it is very inconclusive at your age, because you're not fully grown yet.

My son started complaining of depression and anxiety at your age. I talked with him about it and helped him learn to cope with it, saying how I would fear for him to take anti depressants until he was out of his teens because they have been known to cause very bad reactions in teens sometimes. Now that he's 19, he hasn't complained about depression. He's in college, has close friends, and is too busy to be depressed. He's enjoying it, though.

You may have other psychological issues. Reading about it is good, education is always good. But, you are going through so many changes right now as you are still growing.

[1976kitchenfloor]

Hello, kiddo.

What comes to mind when I read your post is that what you describe sounds a lot like bi-polar disorder.

(I am familiar with bi-polar because my daugher has this disorder)

You might want to look up and read about bi-polar and see if your symptoms and experiences fit/relate.

I wish you well. Be kind to yourself. Keep advocating for yourself. Things will start to get better once you have a completely accurate diagnosis along with a corresponding plan of treatment.

Take care. Hugs.

[-jimi-]

If someone says having extremely violent thoughts, self harm and hallucinations is part of normal teenhood, don't listen. Most kids don't go through that as a part of maturing.

[avlady]

i agree with jimi these are not normal even if only a bit. puberty could be a cause, i know i sufferred terribly when i went through it but back then there were few people that would ever bring up the subject, or they didn't even talk about it in sex ed. I was so bad at one time i tried to overdose, but the i got my mensis and when i woke up i knew that that was why i tried. it goes on into your 20s too.at least it did for me.good luck and try to find a doc and t to help you.

[Imprenotimmature]

Originally Posted by sickofscreaming

Please help me. I've been diagnosed with major depression and anxiety NOS. However, I can tell there's something that hasn't been diagnosed. I looked at schizophrenia, but when mentioning this to my therapist, she brushed it off, saying that I didn't go through the isolation stage. (Honestly, she hasn't known me for that long. I went through that stage before I met her.) Because she brushed me off, I've been scared to say anything else. Does anyone know what this sounds like so I can at least start researching?

I hear things, but not regularly. It's stuff like voices, sometimes music, and ringing. This doesn't happen too often.

I go through basic moods extremely quickly on any normal day. I go between sad, suicidal, hyper, happy, okay, and violent. These moods never last long, and they're all extremely intense. They can easily be altered through little things such as music, certain classes, certain people, situations and stress. My mood could go from hyper to violent in a walk from one class to the other.

I'm violent. There are certain things that annoy me to the point where I have to hurt myself in some way so I don't hurt anyone else. I'm waiting for the day I snap and overkill someone, thanks to my obsession with gore. I'm disgusting.

I'm paranoid. I have this fascination with the world ending. (Not only that, but I'm a bit of a conspiracy theorist.) I love destruction and death and the idea of a broken down society. I prepare myself for this kind of stuff to the point where I see everything as proof of humanity's end. This probably isn't my mental illness talking, but I'll put it on here anyways.

My ideas, opinions, and goals change all the time, almost as frequently as my mood. Enough said.

I'm 15, genderfluid (biologically female), and white if that helps at all.

Thank you to anyone who actually took the time to read this. I'm sorry for taking up your time.

My advice would be to tell your therapist about the isolation stage when you feel balanced and try making a conspiracy i make them all the time I just don't act upon it. Keep hanging in

[Tauren]

Schizophrenia is a major psychosis. If you had it, your shrink would know right away. It's a very serious distortion in thinking and perception, and you can't really just walk around having it without everyone knowing.

[Nike007]

Just another thing that comes to mind is that anxiety NOS "doesn't exist" anymore. I suggest you tell your psychiatrist to look at the new DSM, hopefully it will give you a diagnosis with a treatment associated with it.

Also, early-onset schizophrenia is very rare. Usually onsets in mid 20s I think. Also, if you are taking illegal drugs, that can cause hallucinations, which could onset schizophrenia or a type of psychosis disorder. That's happening more often now.

Anyways, if you are concerned, talk to your mental health professional. Good luck .

Social anxiety disorder, GAD, OCD, and panic attacks

Lexapro, 10 mg

[Rose76]

Schizophrenia involves being out of touch with reality. There are lots of mental disorders that can escape the notice of a therapist who doesn't know you real well. Schizophrenia is not a subtle disorder. If you were schizophrenic, just about everyone around you would notice.

Therapists are really not who you should rely on to diagnose anything. That's the job of a doctor, or of a clinical psychologist. The job of a therapist is to help you find ways of coping with the difficulties you are having.

Doing a lot of research on mental disorders can end up being a way of finding affirmation that you have reasons for finding life hard to cope with. You have to ask yourself why you need to do that. Some people strongly need to find affirmation that "It is not my fault." Some people are wanting to believe that they can't do any better in life because how they are is all that can be expected of a person with such-and-such a diagnosis.

Major depression is terribly disabling. Why not just work with your therapist in trying to find how you can get into recovery from being so awfully depressed. That's really enough of a job for the both of you to get busy on.

As your therapist gets to know you better, other things may emerge that can be given a name. Maybe you are obsessive. Maybe you have a phobia. Maybe you have a personality disorder. Maybe you lack meaningful relations with other people. Maybe you lack certain social or living skills. A rose by any other name would smell as sweet. The names that get put on your problems are not what is most important. What can you do about your problems? That is what is most important.

Ask yourself what you hope to get out of spending time with a therapist. If your therapist redirects you away from a line of thought - like: "I think I am schizophrenic " - then ask yourself why that makes you afraid. Time goes by very quickly in a therapist's office, and it's expensive. There are a million ways we can go off on fruitless tangents that are actually just ways of not getting down to business and figuring out what is it about our approach to life that's not working for us. Part of the therapist's job is to keep you on track and guide you away from wasting time. Otherwise, wasting time is exactly what most if us will do. It's hard to face that we need to change. It's natural to think that we must have a disorder that forces us to be the way we are. It can be comforting to read reams of articles that say how we are is just the way that a person with a certain diagnosis is prone to be. But where does that get anyone?