im not sure if i need help

well i'm not sure where to start, well i'm 19 and since i left school i haven't really worked i haven't talked to any of my friend and i shut myself in the house. i always feel exhausted no matter how much sleep and i try to stay quiet so my family don't talk to me and recently when i am out i try to avoid people i know.

i just recently realised that i cant remember people's faces, names or even the memories i spent with them. when my grandmother and cousin died i was completely unfazed by it, as it i never knew them and couldn't remember anything about them despite recently being with them. the earliest i can remember this i was about 15, and it suddenly hit me that i didn't know what my own face and body looked like, when i looked in the mirror i remember feeling otherworldly as if 'is this really me', i think it was from there i started not remembering people and my early years.

quite recently i got this feeling that just suddenly popped into my head that the world wasn't real that it just realised and suddenly became aware i can feel it throughout my body tingling an it randomly hits me quite often. when i was a few years younger i started not being able to see peoples faces sometimes like passing on the street but it started happening again. not too long ago i got an erratic fear of eyes, it was triggered by a disturbing dream,
sometimes when i talk to people everything fades out and a white noise and this disturbing feeling of dread drags me onto peoples eyes and they almost appear as if otherworldly being, staring through me then it eventually fades.

so that about amounts to my all my problems, i not to sure if i actually need help or if i'm just an attention-seeking loser.

Hello shut-in: No, no, no... you're not an attention-seeking loser! And, yes, you do need to reach out for help in real life. From what you wrote, it sounds as though you may be struggling with some depression & perhaps generalized anxiety. But this is just a guess on my part. Diagnosing what it is that is actually going on with you is a job for a mental health professional. So I would suggest starting out with a counselor or therapist... someone who has the training & the experience to help you figure out what is going on & to develop a plan for dealing with it.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

welcome and enjoy.

I dont know about your location (Scotland ) but here in american what you posted can be just about every single mental disorder\physical health problem/ disease or even just plain normal.

my suggestion is if this continues to bother contact a treatment provider (medical doctor, therapist, psychiatrist....) in your location off line. they will be able to diagnose and get you treated for what ever this may be and then you will soon be feeling better.

Welcome to PC. No you are not an attention seeking loser. There are real technical diagnoses for what you describe. You do need help. I don't know what the NHS? can offer you as I don't live in your country. But others here will know where you can go.

I do know that you have found a lovely place of support here and hopefully some friends.

Yes you need help

No, you're not a .............

Be careful using the NHS. It isn't universally wonderful for legitimate mental health issues, accept no disrespect.

(I'm from the uk )