temporary high..and falling again *may trigger*

im on a temporary high because im getting some new ratties in a few days, and im very proud of myself for being sober for a week straight (a record in my books). and i know that as soon as thats over and done with and i have my rats..

*SPLAT*

if there's any other way to decribe having shitting busted emotions let me know..

AAAARGH its so stupid and now im getting angry. i wanna be normal! whatever normal is! sick of not wanting to wake up, and when i do, im sick of not wanting to move.

AND NOW IM PISSED OFF BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW LONG MY SOBER RUN WILL LAST AND THATS %#@&#! BECAUSE IM SICK OF THE FREAKING WITHDRAWALS ETC ETC SO ON AND BLOODY FORTH

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

hey- just be really proud of yourself for being sober on a Friday night. That is a major achievement in itself. Like the "splat" too. Made me laugh though- when my eldest was an infant she was given a toy green frog- one of those 'beanie' type ones and I named it 'splat'- the way that it lies on it's tummy with it's arms and legs splayed it looks like it has gone 'splat'! Just a 'visual' ref to how you may be feeling! Hope it brings a smile to you . Keep up the good work and enjoy your rats...

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im on a temporary high because im getting some new ratties in a few days

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What are ratties?

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Gabriel said:
im on a temporary high because im getting some new ratties in a few days, and im very proud of myself for being sober for a week straight (a record in my books). and i know that as soon as thats over and done with and i have my rats..

*SPLAT*

if there's any other way to decribe having shitting busted emotions let me know..

AAAARGH its so stupid and now im getting angry. i wanna be normal! whatever normal is! sick of not wanting to wake up, and when i do, im sick of not wanting to move.

AND NOW IM PISSED OFF BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW LONG MY SOBER RUN WILL LAST AND THATS %#@&#! BECAUSE IM SICK OF THE FREAKING WITHDRAWALS ETC ETC SO ON AND BLOODY FORTH

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

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GABE!!!! I care! I really do your a wonderful friend I couldn't imagine looseing!!!!!

pachyderm: ratties, aka ratkins, or just rats.. as in the rodent.

*sigh*

thanks guys.. not sure what to feel right now.

Gabriel - STOP PROJECTING!!!!

I am a sober alcoholic and the worst thing you can do is think about what MAY happen. You are sober and that is fantastic!!! Don't sabotage yourself by saying it's not going to last. When you get up in the morning tell yourself that for today, and only today, you will not have a drink. That's all you have to worry about is today. Do that every day and things will be okay.

Congrats on the new Ratties!

Tranquility

Concentrate on today. You are well today. Don't worry about tomorrow, kay? Tomorrow's not here quite yet