thanks and apologies...

As we say in my part of the world -- UFF DA. It doesn't really have a good translation -- roughly "oy vey" or "good grief," that sort of thing.

I am feeling mildly better today and wanted to thank everyone who hung out with me here yesterday during the single worst meltdown I've had in probably the last decade.

I haven't had the heart to go back and read those posts -- I'm really, really embarrassed and ashamed that it got to that point and everybody had to see me like that . If I were in the mood to learn something, I suppose it would be a lesson in "no matter how healthy you may think you are, the truth will kick you in the arse every time," but ending up in the state I ended up in is really humiliating. I just wanted to say thank you for caring and for helping someone who thought she'd moved relatively more into the "helper" role and at least somewhat out of the "helpee." Ginormous public meltdowns are really humbling.

I'm sorry I don't have the energy to reply to everyone individually, but wanted you to know it helped and I appreciate it.



Candy

((((((((((((((( Candy ))))))))))))))

I am not sure what you are referring to , but your okay in my book!

Take care

candy hon never ever ever be embaressed. we all do it from time to time. (((hugs)))

Candybear, I am sorry I was not here yesterday to support you. However, I am extremely glad you are feeling better.

There's a Sweedish tourist trap up the road a ways. You can by a bumper sticker there that has a cow stepping on one of it's teats and is saying "UFF DA!" Is that kinda how you felt?

I only saw part of your meltdown, Hon. Believe you me!! It was nothing like we've witnessed here in the past! Nothing to apologize for. After all, isn't that what we're here for?

Sorry I didn't stick around but I saw that you were in good hands and I knew there was very little for me to offer. SO GLAD that you're feeling better today.

((((((Tomi)))) ((((DePressMe))))) (((Be)))) Thank you.

Poor Fuzzy took the brunt of it , with significant help from Sky and Rap. It's been an exhausting and excruciatingly humbling experience and really has made me think about my place here at PC and my actions toward others. I don't quite know how or what to say to who, so please just accept a blanket apology for my failings here.



Candy

It's wonderful to have this place for support when things like that happen. It is amazing how we never really know when something is going to hit from out of the blue. I know that while things are going extremely well for me, I am always looking around for the other shoe to fall.....but find I letting down my guard much more than in the past.

We never know when we will have an experience like yours with a meltdown not easily handled.....so we all know that it's ok & there is nothing to apologize for......we are all human & things will sometimes get to all of us.

Glad you are doing better today.....hope this continues & glad you were able to find the support & care here to help you through.

Debbie

Candybear, you have no "failings." We are just a bunch of people trying to get better. We are here to give and receive support--its a 2 way street and you have always been here for me. I hope, at some point in time, I can be here for you. Meltdown or not you are a lovable , huggable person.