[White Witch]

I apologize ahead of time if this is in the wrong place, but I wasn't sure exactly where it fit in........

My husband posed this question to me earlier today, and I'm not sure what the right response is. He has been keenly aware of the mental health issues he deals with and has been active in dealing with them even before having been officially diagnosed with some of them seven years ago. It breaks my heart, because I've watched him work so hard and have seen many improvements on his part, but now we're both stuck at this point because we know what we have to do to move on, but it feels like we've been sucked into a black hole and stuck in the worst kind of purgatory. We've bounced back before, but this time, I don't know.....

So watch this clip and then answer me this: What am I doing wrong? I have been "aiming upward to the best of my ability" for quite a while. Have I kicked the nasty habits and sorted myself out completely? No. But my insistence on changing my environment is motivated by the desire to kick those habits, to reduce some of the stress I'm under to insure the success of my goals. I've gotten myself together as much as I can get myself together at this point under these circumstances. So why am I still staring a giant wall in front of me? Why isn't the cosmos ordering itself to support my goals? WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?!

[Sunflower123]

You're not doing anything wrong. I have a friend who is a really great guy, active at church, has 2 beautiful children, a beautiful wife, nice house, little league coach, good job that he worked hard for, obtained his masters degree and is beloved by so many in the community, never met a stranger.

My friend was wakeboarding August 6th and came into contact with the propeller. He did not survive. His celebration of life crowd overflowed the church. How could he have gotten more right with the cosmos? I just don't believe it works that way.

You are working on improving yourself and that's great. My guess is you'll get over that wall before you know it. The video you posted made me sad. Sending big hugs.

[Bill3]

Jennifer, I am very sorry for your loss.

I was unable to watch the video so likely don't have the big picture.

My input has to do with goal setting. As a leader instilling this was an art form as it must be tailored to suit the individual. The common thread though is that the goals must be realistic and achievable.

Would it be helpful to set some small goals that work towards the larger good? These must not just be achievable and realistic but measurable. Set yourself a time frame and periodically review your status and work towards the goal adjusting it as necessary. Don't forget to acknowledge your 'wins' and award your successes. Consider those that are not and what you can take away from them.

Consider too building up faith within and for yourself.