Thoughts

Hi everyone I’ve posted here before but can’t remember my password to my other account so created a new account . I am suffering from a bad thought I had years and years ago. Since I remembered what I did, my life hasn’t been the same. Anyhow sometimes my mind goes through sort of periods of anxiety/unhappiness (maybe months roughly) that eventually go away for periods of time and then come back in a different way - if that makes sense?
For the past few months I’ve felt anxious/ weird. But especially in the past week my mind/thoughts have felt weird. I can’t explain but I have moments where something seems sped up in my mind or something and I feel it in my chest. Like somethings turning in my chest/mind. I hope this phase passes. I’m afraid.

This sounds strange I know but I just feel on the verge of losing my mind. I hope it’s just anxiety and not psychosis. I know that it would need a professional opinion but can anyone relate to this? Is this just a horrible symptom of anxiety? I’m not suffering from delusional thinking but it’s just scary I feel my mind isn’t fully grounded or present or something hope this is nothing serious.
I need help but can’t ask for it I’m distressed.

Do you have a therapist or PDOC that knows your history & mental health condition (I assume since it sounds like you have been diagnosed?)

They would be the ones to talk to about this. A T can teach you grounding skills & also how to work on controlling your thoughts when you recognize what your mind is thinking on. Takes a good T because learning these skills takes time & practice on our part with the help of a good T guiding our work on this

I think this is more than just anxiety. It does not sound like psychosis as it is now though. Please do talk to a therapist/counsellor and possibly a psychiatrist as well. With a good therapist, you'll have a chance to work through these subconscious things. And the psychiatrist can give you meds to relieve your mind.

Why do you feel that you can't ask for help? Sounds like you need it. We all need help sometimes.

So Sorry you're going through this! Welcome back! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about conctactin a therapist and/or pdoc. It does seem like you may need some Help. There is no shame in seeking some assistance if you're struggling. Please do stay Safe. Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @waterfall99, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

Thanks everyone for your advice and help. I’ve signed for online counselling and hope I get the help my mind is yearning for. I am afraid but want to say again thanks for taking time to respond to this.

A xx