[itsjustme111]

I was just served. If I do not go to this court "examination"; I will be held in contempt of Court and they will arrest me. I phoned my pdoc and totally lost it. He is holding a bed immediately at the hospital. I begged him; NO. These examintaions are on the 24th and 25th. Both being 8hrs. Am I strong enough for this. God, give me an answer. I feel like running away where no one can find me. I had told my ex that I will agree to what he wants, (about a week ago). He said its up to the lawyers. I just phoned him; but had to leave a message. I told him to go ahead; have me arrested; good. They can lock me up; who cares anyway. I guess I am getting what I derserve. I have lost. Whats the point anyway? I have been condemed. I told my ex to be here to pick up the kids by Friday after work. From there; dont care anymore. I will take myself to the police station; let them put me away. They can all kiss my ***. He won from the day I married him; he wins everyday of my life. The haunting dreams of the violence, control, pain; he still has me and he wont let go. I am a complete failure; I hate myself.

justme

[SweetCrusader]

what were you served for?

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

((((((((((justme111)))))))))))))
MAny of us are here if you need to talk; I know you're going through hell right now, please let us share your burdens.
Don't give up; perhaps being in a "safe place" is not such a bad idea--hopefully the hospital can be a "safe place" for you. I know that it's so difficult to give up control; but maybe you need a break too.
Let me know if I can help,
Peace,
Jon

[gloria]

PLEASE HUNG IN THERE. It seems like when it rains it pours, but it always ends in sunny days, so, don't loose hope.

Make sure your p knows everything that is going on. Also, what were you serve for?

There is always light at the end of the tunnel, it's jus that sometimes the sucker is so long it's hard to see, but it ends.

gab

[inkblot]

I could about just cry reading this. I went through so much emotional/physical pain in my marriage and divorce. I still do. My kid's T works (HARD) at *trying* to keep us more manageable. He claims to have lost some of his hairs to us, LOL. (He's slightly follicle-challenged.) {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs to help you get through this Itsjustme}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}