I Am Such A Fool

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I don't know why you feel that way right now, but we've all been there.

<font color=orange>"If a light beckons to you, follow it. If it leads you into the quagmire, you'll probably find your way out of it again; but if you don't follow it, you'll be plagued for the rest of your life by the thought that perhaps it was your star." Friedrich Hebbet</font color=orange>

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<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>

Thanks for the hugs. I don't feel like I deserve them, but thanks anyway.

Why do I feel like a fool? Because every step I've made, every turn I've taken, every choice I've decided upon.....all were wrong, my whole life. I find myself at a place in my life where all my wrong choices have left me with no more options. I thought I understood everything I've experienced. I thought there were reasons for it all. For years and years I believed that, and I plowed on through towards what I THOUGHT was the goal. I was mistaken. No surprise. The goal is gone, the options towards ANYTHING are gone. I'm STUCK. I'm completely and absolutely stuck on a dead-end road, without gas, in the middle of the night, in a foreign country. All I can do is sit and watch life pass me by. I have nothing left.

What do you do when, what you've believed in your entire life, turns out to have been nothing more than foolish thoughts? I've trapped myself, and I don't know what to do from here on out.

Thanks for the hugs, though. I guess I just needed to release a bit of my pain.

What do you do you ask? ANYTHING necessary to pick up the peices, regroup, allow some healing to take place, come up with a plan, and start all over again...life is great that way, for starting over.
You can do it...many of us have been/or presently are with you on this empty road, without gas, in a foreign country etc...
I just reread that sentence in my head and it's amazing that I can say "many"; but I too feel SO ALONE, but if I would open my eyes and my heart I would see so many others who are with me. Healthy people who want to be there for me (okay, a few anyway); and also people who are struggling along beside me.
You're not alone, and you have the power to find the way...no journey is a waste (okay, except for my ex-wife, but that's another story) as long as you've learned something along the way
(((((hugs 2 you)))))
Jon

((((miss understood))))))