[jbug]

I just got off the phone with my dad telling him that I was going to need gas this week. Seems like a normal thing and all I got was yelled at. According to him I'm not really sick I'm just looking for attention. UMMM NOT!!!! He says all my meds are making me sick and therefore I need to get off of them. I don't know what I did to tick him off this time but whatever it is I wish he would just say it instead of making me feel like dirt. I am waiting for the crisis line people for my T and Pdoc's office to call me back but so far they haven't. The thoughts that are going through my head are not good they are destructive and I know this but if I act on them he will just say see she just wanted attention. UMMM NO I WANT HELP!!!

Jbug

[pegasus]

((((((((( jbug )))))))))))

Hang on in there, I hope your T gets back to you soon.

Your Dad doesn't sound like the best person to be speaking to right now.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( jbug ))))))))))))))

[sabby]

(((((((((((((( jbug ))))))))))))))

Stay strong hon....hope you hear from T etc very soon.


sabby

[gimmeice]

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[Typo]

(((jbug)))

[youOme]

jbug....he just doesn't understand you're illess.

hope things get better for you.

[Christina86]

(((((((Jbug))))))))))) I get the same comments from people sometimes too. Hope you're called back ASAP!

[Sprite]

Good Luck I am sure he was just angry at something else and you were just there at the wrong time. But Again good luck .

[jbug]

Well the intake person from the hospital called and they dont' have any beds this weekend so I made an appointment for Monday at 5 for after I get off of work.

I called my mom to tell her what was going on that I would be bringing Tyger to her tomorrow just in case they put me in then he would already be out there and I wouldn't have to worry about him. She said ok and we hung up.

Well the doodoo hit the fan with dad. He called me back told me that I need to quit acting like a baby, that there is nothing wrong with me. He says my meds are to blame and I am to go off of them. I told him the only way I can do that and still stay safe it to be in the hospital. He told me that isn't true and then a few more choice words.

I was told if I go to the hospital he will write me off. I said ok then I will be coming out to get my checkbook and then go to the bank and change the signature card so I can write checks not him. He told me if I do that I owe him immediately $2,000 for my car. He also told me that I am exhausting everybody that no one is going to want to be my friend anymore as I am bringing everyone down.

I am even worse and I can't go to the hospital because I need my dad to talk to me so I can get money etc. He also told me that we would be tightening the reins on my money so I don't run out in the middle of the month and that I will no longer be given money for cigarettes.

Gosh Darn I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!

[TaintedGoth1]

I'm so sorry that your dad is so intolerant of believing that you have anything wrong with you. Please know you can always talk to us.

[jbug]

I just got back from the hospital...I had to get stitches. I called my mom when I got home and she informed me that since I was sick today I cant go to lunch with them tomorrow. Another big let down. Nothing in my life is going well and it sucks.

I am sorry for being such a burden to y'all.

Jbug

[wanttoheal]

You are not a burden on us jbug. We care for you and care about what happens to you.

Please take good care and be safe.

[jbug]

I just emailed my T and told her my idea of how to get my dad off my back about my meds. I told her I want to go off of them for a week to prove to him that I need them. Of course I can't do this in the hospital so it has to be done outpatient. I'm sure when she checks her email this weekend it will be 3 emails damn it she must be bad. I hope I don't get yelled at by her for emailing her too much.

Jbug

[Perna]

Jbug, going off your meds won't prove anything to your Dad and will hurt you. That's not a good plan. You probably won't get yelled at for emailing too much but I bet you do by her and your pdoc and others for going off your meds if you do.

(((((Jbug))))))))))))

[nothemama8]

Jbug, you need to make a plan,
1. do you have anyone that can help with your money (so you don't over spend )
2. DO NOT GO OFF MEDS
3. instead of calling your dad for money send him a note telling how much is needed and for what
4. Talk to your T monday, before doing anything rash
Love ya
Angie

[sunrise]

jbug, I hope you will not go off of your meds for a week just to prove you need them. Even if you don't need some of them, going cold turkey could throw you for a loop. Psychoactive meds should be tailed off gradually.

Would it help if your pdoc wrote an official evaluation of your need for meds, signed it, and gave it to you? Then you could share this with your father to demonstrate your need?

Is there any way you can become more financially independent of your father--write your own checks, not need to ask for gas money, etc.? It sounds like you live independently and have a job--are you able to manage your own money? If not, is there any way you could put someone in charge of it who is not so hostile and toxic? Would your mom be better? It is terrible how your father is using his financial authority to ransom your car and blackmail you. That must feel so disempowering. Do you have a social worker who could intervene to help find a solution? Would family therapy help? Just throwing out ideas....

Hang in there, jbug.

[jbug]

I had lunch with my parents today and got a check to go get some gas and groceries.

I wish there was someone else that could be my payee but I don't know who that would be. My mom and I have the same problem when it comes to money.

I have emailed my T my plan about going off my meds but have not received a response back. I have her home email addy and that is what I have been using this weekend. Come tomorrow when I go on my lunch break I will call my Pdoc's office and talk to his nurse and fill her in and see what suggestions she has.

Jbug

[sabby]

((((((((((( jbug ))))))))))))))

So sorry you are going through such difficulties with your dad. He sounds angry for whatever reason and I can only imagine how you are feeling when he spews it at you like that.

Going off your meds, even for only one week will prove nothing to him hon. He will only turn around and say that you acted out worse to try to make your point. Going off them will only hurt you the most and I don't want to see that happen to you. You've already been hurt enough don't you think?

As far as finding someone to be your rep-payee....If someone else is your legal guardian (your mom or dad for instance), I believe you can petition the court for a change in guardianship. There are agencies who are public guardians and can be named as yours and also as your rep-payee too. Sometimes, it's better to have an outside source do this instead of family. There can be too much emotion and too many difficulties when it comes to money, etc. Talking with your T or a social worker should provide you with answers here hon. They may even help provide you with information on low to no cost attorney's to help you if need be.

One thing I try to do before making big decisions about important life things is to do research and ask questions. That way you are armed with information that can help you make your decisions. You will be able to look at the pros and cons too

Hang in there jbug.....Monday is almost here!


sabby