So i decided that i am sick of being the good girl that i am known for. Just tired of it. All of my friends drink. I never have... until yesterday. So my mom had a party last weeked and we have all of this stuff in the fridge. I was really pissed of yesterday so i just decided why not. And it was fine, sorta fun. So i did it again today. It makes me feel sneaky and almost like im a normal teenager...

[salukigirl]

don't get too carried away. or you might end up in a.a. at 17 like moi. not fun!

[Lenny]

And there is a last too Court...

Like the last time you played with dolls or soldiers...or skipped...

There was that day when you just didn't pick them up anymore like walking off the Earth somehow and becoming something else...and often we don't even recognise it happening...

Firsts are wonderfull but it is those lasts that mark the changes...

Be carefull...

IMHO.

Lenny

[Fuzzybear]

[I_WMD]

>>... Court Ya have to get your feet wet sooner or later ,,, You Be going off to college soon ,, and reality is >>>> Lots of binge drinking and pressure to join in ..and you have read about the WTF's .

I not sugar coat anything !!!!! I Respect the fact that you Have the knowledge to be the GOOD GIRL >>>>.,,,,,

And this little revelation >> does make me [ u n d e r s t a n d a b l e y ] ,,, Concerned .

,,>> Never cause those that Love and Care so Deeply for you >>>. Ever have to stand in the rain with a solemn expression twisted onto their Faces ,,,, As in at ,,>>>,, Your Funeral . .

You are Now in Life going to Be / have more responsibilities ,, and you will have to use the Judgement that Will Take you into the grown - up world soon enough .
Schooling ,, goals ,, carreer !!!

No body will be with you 100 % of the time ....

[Razzleberry]

Hun...just be careful. I know you hear that all the time but seriously. Don't let it control your life.

[(JD)]

Was what you did legal?

I'm sorry you are feeling insecure lately that you think a drug like alchohol is the answer.

[splitimage]

Sneaking a drink can seem like fun, but be very careful. Alcohol is a drug, nothing more nothing less. Yes it's a legal and socially acceptable drug, but that doesn't make it any less dangerous. Using alcohol to escape feelings can be the start of a very unpleasant road that trust me you don't want to go down.

There's absolutely nothing wrong with being a "good girl".

--splitimage

[TaintedGoth1]

I certainly understand the rush of all this but there are dangers...

Please stay safe.

i am a "great kid" for the most part. thats always what my mom tells people. I make honor roll and take advanced classes. I'm earning college credits in highschool. I participate in my church and i'm over all just a nice person to everyone. but my mom flips out on my for every little thing. A B is unacceptable. talking back is the end of the world oh and dont get me started on saying the word shut up or forgetting to empty the dishwasher... you would think the world was ending. my mom says the most mean things to me and makes me feel like crap. So why am i trying to be this good girl? why not make my self feel better and give her a real problem to get mad at me for? ... though she wont ever find out or i would be dead.

[TaintedGoth1]

I just think you're doing it for all the wrong reasons...do it because you're curious not because you wanna get your mom back or give her something to be truly be angry at you for.

[sabby]

((((((((((((((( Court )))))))))))))))))

There are so many other things one can do to help one feel better than to drink....especially when you are under the legal drinking age, not to mention the fact that self medicating with alcohol is NOT the way to care for oneself.

No one in this world is perfect.....and that means me, you and everyone else. We all make mistakes, we all struggle to do what we think is the right thing and we all get upset and angry and sad and feel hopeless and wonder why in the world we should care???

I truly hope that you really think hard about what you are doing when it comes to alcohol or other drugs now and in the future. You have the ability to be something wonderful in life, but if you go down the path of alcohol....you are limiting what you are capable of hon. That would be a real shame......and it could lead to more heartache than you'll ever want.

I care about you Court......and I'm sending you strength and keeping you in my prayers.

xoxoxo
sabby

i dont really know what to say honestly.
i dont feel bad about what i did
i just dont want you guys mad at me

[heyjoe]

you do well in school for you for your future not for your mother, thats why you do it

im not one to lecture, i drank a bottle of sangria when i was 15, and prayed to the porcelan god for hours after..ha

all teenagers go through a rebellious phase, for some it lasts 60 years...ha

[Timgt5]

We are not "mad" at you Court, just concerned for your safety and well being.

I am not going to tell you whether you should or should not drink, only you can make that choice for yourself. There is a lot of good advice here, please pay attention to it. I would urge you to engage some of the folks here who have had problems with alcohol in their lives and learn about the troubles that it has caused them.

I am not going to re-hash what others have said here, its all great but I would add one thing.

Please, please , please if you ever find yourself drinking

DO NOT EVER GET BEHIND THE WHEEL OF A CAR.

The potential, cost to your life and to others could be devestating and incalculable.

Take care of yourself

TJ

[eskielover]

(((((((((Court)))))))),

Take your mother out of the picture for a moment in time while you think about you. She doesn't exist not do her thoughts.

What kind of person do you want to be. Do you want to be a successful person who is capacle of excelling in school, college, a career, a professional who is respected for what she is capable of being & doing with the talents that God has given you?

Do you want to get up every morning....feeling sick until you can get a drink down your throat to make you feel better so you can just function to get ready to go to work....not a career...just a job.....then having people who know you, or your own family if you get to that point...having that Drunk Mom that is out of control & the only control in her life is her drinking?

Yes, it may only be a phase that you are going through, but the problem with alcohol is that you dont know if your body is capable of becoming an alcoholic until you have already been drinking & it has you in it's grasps (unless you have any alcoholicism in your family & then you know the chances are great that's where you will end up. Why do you want to put yourself & your future into that position...for your own good & not caring what anyone thinks.....what do you want for yourself.

What kind of person do you want to be because in the long run....what you want is the only thing that will make you happy.

I was the straight A student with parents that didn't care how I did. I had to choose success because I saw a family around me that wasn't successful & I lived my life or what I wanted....luckily, what I wanted was the college degree, & the career. I could have put the same determination into choosing to do the things that would make me a bad person (drinking, drugs....etc). We all have determination....it's just what we choose to apply it to that determines how successful we will be in the rest of our lives & some of those choices we make at the age you are now have consequenses that we don't end up liking when we look back at them....but at the time we were reacting to someone like our Mother who made us angry & we wanted to make sure that we did the things they didn't want us to do (even if we didn't let them know about it) because it gives us a sense of power to feel in control of something...anything....even if it's not a good thing, when what we would have really wanted for ourselves is the good.

This is a voice from a lot of self experoences & I care about what you are going through because I understand your feelings.

Make your choices for he RIGHT reasons,
Debbie

[eskielover]

One other thing I wanted to add is a very very important point.....you say you participate in church.....they you do know what the values you really have for the life you want to live in terms of that.......those terms are between God & you.....no one else is involved...you are not living to please anyone else in this world....those are the values that is you hold to them...you will do what you feel is the right thing to do....not just things that make you a "good girl" in the sight of others, or make you feel like a normal teenager. You should never do things to make you feel like someone else wants or is like...you have to live your life with your own values & be the kind of person that YOU WANT to be.

Live to love yourself & please your God & you will never be wrong,
Debbie

[bflatgary]

Courtney,

One important thing to remember is that you don't have to drink to have a good time.Drinking for the purpose of satisfying your friends, or to get back at Mom, is not the answer.

Be careful...

bfG

[salukigirl]

court- i realize that a lot of these posts seem down on you and insensitive. judging from your other posts in here i think you seem pretty responsible. i dont think youre the kind of person who would let it get out of control because you have so many things going for you. yes, alcohol is a drug. but its still fun to drink sometimes. have no room to judge you because, honestly, i just drank a pictcher of daquiri a week ago lol. dont let anyone else mak you feel bad about drinking every now and then. you dont need to justify it to me, or anyone else. people come down on me for smoking. well you know what? if i didnt smoke, there would be a lot less people in the world lol. we all deal with issues in our own way. its just important to see that drinking wont make them go away. but its good to have an escape sometimes. what about people who waste their lives away in fantasy video games... same mechanism, different addiction.

[chalmette70043]

Yeah Court, its the thing when your a teenager to drink. But, for me i wish i never drank. I started with highballs and wine alot younger than that. By the time i was 12 i was stealing beer and whiskey. In high school me and my friends would get so drunk none of us could drive, so we'd have to push the car back home. We thought it was fun, but when i look back on it now. I see how stupid it was.

Its not worth it. Its more worth being a good girl.


love ya,
chalmette

[KathyM]

Sigh....Court Knee

When my friend and I were about 8, we used to watch our parents drink and have a good time. When no one was looking, we both took huge swigs out of the first bottle we could find in her mom's liquor cabinet - vodka. OMG were we drunk - OMG did we get in trouble! It was obvious to her mom what we had done. Neither one of us could walk or talk straight.

I don't blame you for wanting to "rebel." I did that too when I was your age, though not necessarily with drinking. In a weird way, I think it's just an awkward attempt to spread your wings and take a little control in your life. There's nothing wrong with that as long as you keep a check on yourself. You're acting out because you want to have a life of your own - not end it or destroy your life.

Whatever you do, keep a healthy respect for yourself and your body - especially with alcohol. Dependence on alcohol can creep up on you. It can also cause you to place yourself in some very embarrassing and/or dangerous situations. One simple "mistake" can lead to a lifetime of regret.

Do you still want a T-Shirt? I saw a drunken woman walking down the street wearing a T-shirt that said "Take me Drunk, I'm Home"

[Soidhonia]

(((COURT))). I know you feel normal is boring and that you are just Having Fun at this time, but having fun can lead to alcoholism that turns into a nightmare. I wish I could share stories with you of people that come to my support group who wish they had never thought drinking was fun, unfortunately both of them died within a week of each other last month and this month. one was 50 years old and the other was 51. Please find a safe out for your curiosity there are many other options than drinking and I feel sincerely you can find them if you want to be around the right people and have a good time sober. Take care. (((Court))) PM anytime. Soidhonia.

[(JD)]

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(((Court)))) it isn't that you did this, it's WHY you did it, and what you did, that can lead to very bad results.

Everyone does something that a parent never finds out about, nor do they want them to. But from the way you posted this, and the reasons you give, and some of your thinking, this was pure, blatant acting out. I think everyone is pretty much responding to that evidence, and are concerned for you. I doubt anyone is angry with you.

To me, this is a cry for help. But since we are not there, all we here at PC can do is give you words that convey our concerns.

Please find someone to share this with, a responsible adult who can help you understand why you are feeling this way, and needing to do something like this. It's important, honest.

[TaintedGoth1]

(((((Court Knee)))))

I don't think anyone's mad at you. We're just very concerned as to where this behavior could get you.

I'm thinking of you.

Well thanks for caring everyone.
I really appreciate that.
i wish my own mom would care.

((((everyone))))))))