I Did It, I Did It!!!!

<font color="blue"> My social anxiety is a pretty difficult condition to live with. But I've been isolating myself too much, and I really want to help others who are less fortunate than myself. Well......I scheduled an appointment with our local food bank to volunteer.

Last week I cancelled because I just couldn't get up the nerve to walk over there.

But today...... I did it!

They want me to do data entry for them, and I start next Monday morning. I love working on computers, and it'll be so much fun to input all the donations data.

I'm so happy that I pushed through that anxiety. I can't believe I did it!!

Just thought I would share.

Hugs,
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Congratulations Sandy!!

Wooo-hooo!!!!

That was very brave of you.

congrats! it's very awesome of you to give to your community!

Dear Sandy,

Thats wonderful news that you will be doing something that you like at the food bank. We are proud of you.

Leslie

Congratulations!! It takes a whole lot of courage to step out like that! Woooohooooo!!!

Hi Sandyweb,

You did a brave thing, against the odds. It's an inspiration to everyone here. Well done !!

Myzen,

Congrats Sandy!! What a great accomplishment! I am very happy for you....

way to go! I am so happy that you are able to step out and do something that benefits you and others, way cool.

C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S ! ! ! ! ! ! !

You go!!!! That was so brave, but what an empowering step for you. I wish you continued success!!!!! Your will to helps others, helped you

Be safe,

Kimmydawn

Congratulations Sandy.

I know how you feel and it is a majorly big accomplishment ! I haven't gotten that brave yet but I am working on it.

Good luck!
Kimberly.

Congratulations Sandy!!!!!!!

This is a great accomplishment, Sandy. Very brave. And admirable. And inspiring, giving hope to us to succeed in our steps forward. Best wishes for great success.

<font color="purple"> Well, today is Monday....the day I'm supposed to start my volunteer work at our local food bank.

And here I am.....sitting at my computer.

I just couldn't do it. I couldn't get up the nerve to walk out my door and head on over there.

I just couldn't handle the scaredness within me.

So I sent them an email and stated that I was busy this week.....leaving the door open for me next week....but I'm pretty darn sure I'll have to back out again next week.

And the only reason I made it over to the food bank last week, to honor my appointment there, was because my daughter was out of school and came with me.

And now, today, I can't go over there by myself.

I am so disappointed in myself.

I'm such a wreckage of my old self.

My meds prevent me from feeling suicidal, but I'm telling you....it's times like this that I wish I would quit the meds so that I can follow through with my impulses. There really is not much use for me around here.

I'm so disappointed in myself. What the heck do I do with my life now??

(Sorry for the "down" post. I don't mean to dump on you.)

Sandy

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Hi Sandy,

I haven't talked to you that I know before, but I don't mind a "Down" post, In fact I've considered my "Down" posts accomplishments in overcoming my fears. I bet if you are still around you can still make it over there and make some excuse about a cancelation or some such. Most volunteer run places want people when it works for the volunteers, I bet. If today isn't your day to do this no biggy set a new day and go then. Rooting for ya.~Down

Anyone who can hang around with purple hair has got to be pretty gutsy!

Hi SandyWeb -- I don't think you're a loser, and I hope that you will stop thinking of yourself that way. Sure, I can understand why you'd use words like that and feel disappointed in yourself.

But you took a big step. I am so selfish that I find it really hard to do volunteer work. It's ingrained in me that I should get paid when I work. In fact, my personal definition of work is that it's called "work" and not "play" because people have to pay us to do it. To me, there's almost nothing harder than following through on volunteer commitments. Riding rollercoasters or driving with a drunk at the wheel, but that's about it that tops volunteer work for things I don't want to do.

Like Down says, this is no biggy. If it helps, maybe your daughter or someone else will go with you the first time.

<font color="brown"> Thanks for your comments. But, you know what??

Shortly after I sent my "can't work" email, I got one back from the lady I'll be working for. She had been going to tell me not to come in today anyways! Lol! We had a snowstorm this weekend, and apparently the schools are closed where she lives and thus she was staying home with her kids today.

I feel so much better after having read your replies, and then getting that email!

Now I feel like I'll be able to get myself to go to the food bank on Wednesday, when I was scheduled to come in as well.

I think that if I do it ONCE, then I'll be able to continue. It's just that first time which is trying to overwhelm me.

And it's so silly, too. Isn't this disease a nusense at times?? It's not like I'm back in the nursing program and working clinicals. Darn! I'm just sitting at a computer doing data entry!!

It's amazing how much a little bit of commiseration helps.

Thanks for believing in me!

Hugs,
Sandy

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