I got computer access...

(((((Depressme)))))

so glad that your are safe, but am so very sorry that you are struggling. I really hope that you are getting good care and that the staff are treating you well. Just try to take it one day at a time and remember things will get better.

Re your earlier question about intrusive thoughts of self harm - I get them all the time. Just remember they're just thoughts. They're not bad. They don't have to be acted on. They're just urges that you have to accept and ride out. I treat them exactly the same way I do when I get cravings to drink. You don't have to be afraid of your thoughts. You're stronger than the are.

I've been thinking about you so I was really happy to see your message posted. You just hang in there and let yourself heal.

--splitimage

Hi all! Thanks for all the wonderful support. I am feeling better. But, last night was another night in seclusion. The noise from the unit triggers me--it is so loud with people always yelling. They are talking about maybe letting me go home tomorrow. My doctor said, being in the hospital helps some people, but not others. He thinks, as long as I am safe, I would do better at home. Mainly because of the noise on the unit. I think he is right--I will do better at home. I am back on my meds and I am not having so many intrusive thoughts of hurting myself. So, keep your fingers crossed for me--I really want to go home. 10 days is long enough on a psych ward...the scary part is that I am starting to like being in seclusion. It is the ONLY quiet place around here. Tonight, I may just ask to start out there so I don't have to have an incident that puts me there.

Well, my computer time is about up...I miss you all and I look forward to getting back here on a more regular basis.