[itsjustme111]

Hey all. Just wanted to tell you that I am being admitted into the hospital. We have not worked out all of the details but I am going.

I think they are looking at 3 weeks to a month. I am sure I will get passes eventually.

So I wanted to say bye for now, be back when I am better. Thanks everyone for all of the continued support. It took my doctor to "take a strip" out of my arsss, lolol. My blood was done yesterday and has dropped, I am a sitting duck for heart failure. So as scared as I am, I got to go.

Take care everyone and will talk soon.

Love,

Justy

[Thursdy]

Good luck, I am sure you will come out better than ever!

[silver_queen]

(((((((((((((((Justy)))))))))))))) I am sorry you are having to go into hospital, but I am also glad because it will help you heal there. I'll really miss you. Take care.

Silver.

[(JD)]

(((JUSTY))))) my thoughts are with you.... (what about the kiddo?)

[itsjustme111]

Hope so, but I am so darn chicken; lol.

I guess facing all of this scares me to death. (not the best way to put that). What my doctor said to me really hit me hard. And I had got so mad at him, we were arguing terribly, but he is right.

I was making excuses to not deal with this. And at first I denied this but he is right. He said in his heart he never believed that I want to die. He is right or I would not be here would I?

I hate this anxiety though....yucky. Worse things in life I suppose.

Justy

[gardenergirl]

Good luck, justy.

I hope it goes well, and that you get the care you need.

Be good to yourself, sweetie.

gg

[nothemama8]

{{{{{{{{{Justy}}}}}}}}
Tried to send you a picture to take with you, but computer is acting up.
Print out my Butterfly from post and take me with you, so you won't be alone
Angie

[h0kie]

Good luck Justy! You're in my thoughts. Wishing you a speedy release.

(((((Justy)))))

[wisewoman]

Justy, good luck honey. Keep us posted. Good job, I am so happy for you.

Justy,

This hospitalization has been a long time coming sweetie. I'm glad your doctor has been sticking with you through all this. He genuinely cares for your welfare as do many of us here!

I am pleased to read you are entering inpatient treatment. I am hopeful that you will receive the help you need to contend with these diseases.

You're going to do fine there honey. I'm proud you're going and want you to stay as long as it takes to get back to a place you're able to care for yourself properly. I know about that from last fall when I became too weak to care for myself. It is scary to admit how much help is needed.

You're going to survive through all this Justy. I'm super proud you're at this point now and going to be doing this. Good luck sweetie and you have a cheering crowd here for you.

[SpazKatt]

*hugs* I wish you a speedy recovery!!

[Wants2Fly]

Wish it was Hawaii -- like SpazKatt's trip -- but this is surely the best thing no matter how much one hates to go the hospital.

Best wishes for speedy and great recovery, Justy.

[Leslie]

((((((((((((((((((((JUSTY))))))))))))))))))))
I just tried to call your house when I read what you wrote, I am in tears, but not in sadness but that you are getting help. I don't want to lose you.

Love,
Leslie

[itsjustme111]

Oh wow, you guys are so great.

((((Leslie)))), I am sorry, I was on the other line with my doctor. He wanted me to call his cell tonight after kids were in bed. He is setting it all up as we speak. I have been crying so hard I don't think I have many tears left; lol, and my head is pounding. But thats alright, I will make more tears; lol.

Ya, scary part is, lately I have realized that I don't have any energy for nothing. Its a battle to make supper, do any laundry, clean etc. Even to do homework with the kids has been a battle. And thats terrible isn't it. It took some really tough caring from everyone to help me see and I feel horrible putting everyone through this mess. Thats gunna be the hard part: guilt and forgivness.

So I am home for now. I think most likely in the next couple of days..not sure. I shall wait for a call. Why is a grown up so afraid of the silly hospital? My stomach is so ill from worry. My doctor said I have been hiding with this and I need to stop hiding or I will either be hauled off by the police or I am going to die. So he said what I leave behind is a bigger mess than this is. If I take the easy way out, fine, but I then leave my kids to a life of torment like mine was. I can't do that to them can I. I love them to much and they count on me to be a mom, to protect them from not going through what they already have. And the thought of my kids going through this over and over, to end up sick like me one day: GOD, WE STILL HAVE A CHANCE TO MAKE THINGS BETTER.

So simple to say, seems so out of reach. I used to be such an amazingly strong person. Is this gone or can I find it again? I guess I won't know till I find out; lolol. Just tons of stuff running through my head right now.

I love you all, for being here for me always. I will take all the courage from here and find what I have been searching for. You are my family, thanks for being the best that anyone could ever wish for.

Justy

[gardenergirl]

Hi justy,
I hate those post-crying headaches. I saw a remedy posted online once. I can't remember which way it worked, but it involed putting a hot washcloth on your forehead and a cold one on the back of your neck. Keep changing the washcloths to keep the temperatures as hot and as cold as you can stand. It worked very well for me. If it doesn't work, I may have it backwards, in which case try the hot on the back of the neck and cold on the forehead.

((((justy)))

gg

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COLD washcloth (keep rinsing in cold water and wringing out) against forehead

AT SAME TIME

WARM washcloth along back of neck/base of skull. Keep washcloth as hot as you can tolerate it. Continue this application of cold up top and warm below for about 10-15 minutes. Headache should be gone.

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[itsjustme111]

Oh, cool guys. Thanks so very much. I am so panicking right now. The thought of going into h.

Oh my, freak out for what?? But I can't help it, I don't feel so great (physically). I am going to go try the wash cloth suggestion. I appreciate this gardengirl and zh!! I will let u know how it worked out for me.

Justy

[gardenergirl]

Thanks for clarifying. Do you remember who posted it? Or was it from the wise and powerful zen?

I know I benefit from it.

gg

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Justy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Please get better soon!! I'm gonna miss you so bad and I'm gonna worry so much!! But at the same time, I'm so glad that you're finally getting the help you need, sweet thing!

Awwwww {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{))))Justy!((((}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Be well!!

[SweetCrusader]

((((((((Justy))))))))

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((((((((( justy )))))))))))))))))))))))))))

i wish so much for you right now. you're in my thoughts.

kd

[wisewoman]

Justy, I am so relieved you are going. Please let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do. You are in my thoughts and you are making a good choice.

[itsjustme111]

Thanks ((((((((((((((((((((everyone)))))))))))))))))). You are the best, each and everyone of you!!!

I will miss you all and I will think of you everyday. You all take care, be good to yourselves. See----I am already crying, miss ya already....(wonder if I can take my computer with me; lolol)

Justy

[heatherm]

((((((((((((Justy))))))))))))))))

Take special care of yourself...you are worth it hun.

I will be thinking of you.

xoxo

[shakes]

Justy,
My thoughts are with you

Jessica