Dang teacher

Some people suggested that I talk to my teacher about my problems in class--that I don't really like to work in the groups or with people, etc--due to recent events in my life like the stalker and PTSD problems. There isn't really much of anything that he can do, so I finally decided to email him last week.

In class the next day he seemed very different, and at the end of class made the announcement that if we hadn't completed our first task yet, that we were officially behind. (I hadn't completed anything yet.) He acted as though he didn't know what to say.

Anyway, in the next class which was today, he was pretty cheery and "normal" for how he usually is. Just one thing: he made me do today's <super EZ> skill. I tried to postpone it, taking my sweet old time to find a single partner to do it with. Actually, I got up from my desk and threw away my empty soda bottle, made a note in my notebook. I even postponed a bit more asking him about missing the next class (we're taking a test) if I could come to a different class hour that day instead. He eventually made yet another comment to get me going, this time calling to me, "Hey, Dear!..." and really made me do it so we could get on with class. I just chuckled to myself and though "Damn, teacher, making me WORK in class. Geesh, the very idea! How dare he!" Of course, I found it humorous and wasn't really upset with him. I just hate having to get up and perform like that. With the guy stalking me recently, I've really got this thing at the moment about being watched.

I don't blame you one damn bit. I'd be wierded out about that too. Maybe your teacher is trying to make you get back on the proverbial horse by making you do something he knows you're not comfortable with? Do you feel that now that he knows what's going on that you could talk to him face to face?

I wouldn't care if we talked face to face. Email is just so much easier, especially when you don't know what to say or how. I thought it would be easier and let him go over it at his convenience and time for thought. Yeah, I think is motive today was to give me that little push, LOL.

Now, when you say get over it, I'm assuming that you mean get over the shock of what you've told him? Do you think he'd be willing to help you through e-mail?

Yes...I thought it would give him to get over the shock and to think about it some. I mentioned everything--my living situation, the PTSD, the stalker, protection order, court, more.

It's awesome that you trust him enough to let these things out. Did you feel any better having released these things to someone in your real life? I hope it did.

I did kind of feel better and that he did have a right to know, since I wasn't really enthused to do the work in class. I just felt weird letting him in on it because I didn't want to make him uncomfortable with my personal information.

Well, it seems that it may have shocked him a bit but that he is back to good now. Has he responded to your e-mail?

He didn't reply to the email, but I think it was close to a reply what happened today and the end of the last class. I go to court on the next class date, so when I asked him about going to a different time for the class that day, he seemed to almost automatically know why I would be asking that. That was the impression I got.

He was also gave more of a personal, friendly touch today by saying "Hey, dear" and other things.