[shezbut]

Just wondering how you're doing now that you've gone home after being IP?

Are you feeling better now? How long has it taken you to get back into the swing of things? Do you have any skills that you've found very helpful in this adjustment period?

*For me, me general sense of being has certainly improved since my hospitalization. I am feeling better, but no, life isn't chipper for me either. Instead, a better description might be that I've learned how to cope on harder days. I am unsure about that. The IOP that I've been attending has also helped me a lot with interpersonal relationships. I need to return to work very soon... I REALLY need the money! But, a social worker in the IOP is setting me up to see an Occupational Therapist first. Determining what I am and what I'm not able to do will be extremely helpful for me! I still really need to gain the gumption to call my job and tell them that I'm still unable to work though ~ and I am so scared to do that. I'm scheduled to work this Wed and Thu, so I need to gather the gumption to get off my heiny and do it already though. *

So, what's going on in your world??

[Skeezyks]

Well... it's been several years now since I was IP. It was the second time around for me. The first time I attended a partial hospital program after being released from the psych ward. The second time, I just went home & took up where I left off. It's all pretty-much a blur. I guess being IP helped me at a time when I couldn't take care of myself. But otherwise it was mostly just a waste. I don't think I ever did get back into the swing of things really. Luckily I wasn't employed. So returning to work was not an issue.

[Kiya]

Well... This was my *gulp* 12th hospitalization in 6 years.
On the us side, I think I gained a new sense of being from being treated differently in there. Rather than staff being reactive to my behaviors, and thus causing more behaviors, it was all a non-issue. What a difference. That and being in DBT I think are making this time different. I feel calmer I think. Plus there was some natural integration of DID selves during some personal work. And my meds got changed up over the last few months, even as late as last week.
Lamictal went up
Zoloft went up
Started mirtazapine
Got off trazodone
Now they are checking one more medical issue- see if I'm having absent seizures. I'll have an EEG.
I'm certainly more dissociative with the integration, but I think I am overall more stable and my thinking isn't as chaotic. I'm employing more choice more often rather than letting emotions take the helm.
Thanks for asking and sharing!
Kiya

[possum220]

Thanks for asking.

I left the clinic mid may. I was on 30mg of Mirtazepine and ditched it. My Seroquel has been doubled. I am also back on Klonolpin. Given that I was sleeping in the car again this week (not a great shift in my mood) I have decided to try fluoxetine again. Even though the last time I was on it I fell over too much as it affected my balance. Starting small 20mg per day. Fingers crossed.

I have also been doing dbt - with my stuffie in tow. The fact that I have shown up for that every week, which has been a major achievement for me. It is very hard work. I am want to learn from the next two modules distress tolerance and emotional regulation.

I hope to do some volunteer work when this course finishes. Still working on the feeling better bit.

[Wila]

I left hospital in mid january and I've been on a steady path for the better until about a week ago when my anxiety has been much more present and dark thouhgts as well. I hope I'll be able to stop it before it gets worse, otherwise it'll be another stay.

It's been three months since I was discharged from my 7th (I think?) hospital stay

I am feeling okay I was ready to leave and things have been going well since I got out, I do feel like things havent changed much other than the fact that I am not working as many hours and I am taking my medication more frequently

I think overall things are pretty good

[Kiya]

I also dropped the mirtazapine. It had me too druggy and unable to wake up. Now I'm not sleeping through the night just on Valium. Irritation is pretty high. I suppose I could add back 25 mg of trap to see if I can sleep through the night. Would be nice.
Things are still stable and I am using my DBT skills to remember choice, problem solve, and know this feeling isn't forever.
Hugs to those that want them