[hurting__]

I eat when I'm sad, angry, depression, etc. I eat so much I end up feeling sick and it's like I can't control it. I'm disgusted with myself and am gaining so much weight but I feel like I can't stop. Food is what makes me happy... I'm on a different "diet" every week but I can never stick to it and end up bingeing on disgusting foods straight afterwards and feel even worse.. I hate my weight and I want to do anything to change it but I always fail.. I'm absolutely disgusted in myself and what I end up eating and how much..for example before I just ate half a packet of m&ms and four timtam biscuits... I'm not sure if this is an eating disorder..but it can't be right can it?

[Twigs92]

It already sounds like it's causing you a lot of stress, I can't say you defintely have one, however there is binge eating disorder and it sounds, from what you've said, a little like that. Here's the psych central link Psych Central: Dr. Grohol's Mental Health Page - Binge Eating Disorder

I recommend going to the doctor and seeing if they can refer you to some form of mental health treatment to deal with it, as your attitude towards yourself sounds very negative, the behaviour is causing you distress, and you want it to stop. Before you feel the urge to eat when feeling extreme emotions, do you have a window where you can distract yourself? Like going for a walk? Or listening to a song to calm down? For me personally if I'm particularly upset or angry I lift weights, and it slowly calms me down, the feeling passes and thinking becomes a bit clearer. I hope this helps.

[mysticalmusic]

Hello. My name is Tanja. I call myself mysticalmusic on here. Am I a food addict if I use food to cover up my fears?? I used to be cute and skinny. But after years of jealousy and beatings from my husband I have turned into someone that is fat and over the hill. I am only 43 and I feel like 65! Whenever I lose weight I sabotage my healthy diet. I feel fear. My husband used to beat me for being pretty. Now I feel safe being fat. it's like a bearer between me and the world. Also a survivor of child sexual abuse. Deep image issues. Please help! Anyone else like that out there?

Thank you,
mysticalmusic

[mysticalmusic]

Originally Posted by Twigs92

It already sounds like it's causing you a lot of stress, I can't say you defintely have one, however there is binge eating disorder and it sounds, from what you've said, a little like that. Here's the psych central link Psych Central: Dr. Grohol's Mental Health Page - Binge Eating Disorder

I recommend going to the doctor and seeing if they can refer you to some form of mental health treatment to deal with it, as your attitude towards yourself sounds very negative, the behaviour is causing you distress, and you want it to stop. Before you feel the urge to eat when feeling extreme emotions, do you have a window where you can distract yourself? Like going for a walk? Or listening to a song to calm down? For me personally if I'm particularly upset or angry I lift weights, and it slowly calms me down, the feeling passes and thinking becomes a bit clearer. I hope this helps.

Thank you for the kind suggestions. Much appreciated. Trying to figure things out...again, thank you,

Tanja

[ChildlikeEmpress]

Hello Hurting, I am in exactly the same boat as you. It feels horrible. I feel like I can't stop eating, once I get that urge to eat. I'll stuff myself before dinner and then go ahead and eat dinner anyway because then my family will want to know why I'm not eating dinner! I have tried a bazillion diets and like you it doesn't last and I wind up bingeing again. I actually had a lot of success with calorie counting for about a year, but then it backfired and I wound up COMPLETELY obsessed with food and always, always hungry. So, I'm now gaining back everything I lost and it's so depressing! I try to stop and I cannot stop!
I can so relate and hopefully writing about it in this forum will help us.