just some stuff

I'm afraid to open up too much.
It feels safer to be slightly ambiguous.
I don't want to be alone but I don't want to be too close.
I find it hard to except me.
I abandon something rather than risk failing.
I have no deep passions.
Love is too risky to even consider.
I am said to be strong, but I don't feel strong enough.

(((((((((((Kalamity))))))))))))))

You have my support. that sounds so much like me! But look.. you did open up a little to us.. Gradually im sure you will do it with your friends a bit too. You can grow and heal!

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esthersvirtue said:Gradually im sure you will do it with your friends a bit too.

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I wish that were true, but I haven't had friends of any kind in many years.

Kalamity,

I understand the fear of opening up too much, and the safe feeling of being ambigious.

My loneliness can be so stifling yet ---closeness and comradery escalate my anxiety beyond control.....

I've not completed any project I've ever started for fear it will fail---(quit college, different hobbies lay around half complete) can't fail if it's not finished. I wish I could just stick with one job even!

I dream of that warm feeling of assurance and acceptance while having coffee with a friend-- but my inner self believes I'm not friend quality.

Thank you for posting...... I find it very difficult to post about my inner struggles-- don't think I could have done this on my own.

I apologize I don't have anything uplifting to give to you.... wish I knew the right things to say. I do think it's a good step you took in posting.

Wishing you inner peace.

Oh no, I'm having second thoughts about my post to you.

I sure didn't mean to talk all about myself--- I was trying to convey that you are not alone--that I am listening and understand--- but worry now, if I seemed to have changed the focus on myself--- I'm sorry.

I have such trouble expressing what I really mean to say.

I wish you well and hope I haven't offended you.

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mandyfins said:
Oh no, I'm having second thoughts about my post to you.

I sure didn't mean to talk all about myself--- I was trying to convey that you are not alone--that I am listening and understand--- but worry now, if I seemed to have changed the focus on myself--- I'm sorry.

I have such trouble expressing what I really mean to say.

I wish you well and hope I haven't offended you.

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On the contrary. You haven't offended me at all and you have nothing to apologize for. I appreciate your comments and even understand where you are coming from. Rarely do I feel like I have anything uplifting to say, but I can often relate to how someone feels and hope that the knowledge that one isn't alone is enough.

It's never so lonely when you know someone really knows how you feel. Thank you.