[Americano]

Right now I feel like I understand everything. Maybe it’s because I just moved into a dorm setting and the change is amazing. But I fear that I’ll wake up tomorrow very tired and completely lose the insight and freedom of brain fog. And be a zombie letting life pass me by. I have this happen quite often where I feel a certain clarity and I’m so afraid of it going away. Anyone know about this?

[Skeezyks]

Well... yes I certainly do experience moments of what I at least consider to be clarity. They're not typically tied to anything such as a move. Mine just seem to come out of nowhere. All of a sudden, for no apparent reason, I just seem to see my sorry life in all of it's stark reality. When it happens it takes my breath away. Mine don't typically result in anything long-term though. They do tend to bring on a period of increased sadness. But this gradually just dissolves after a while back into my normal statue of ennui.

Many years ago, when I was in college, I started out living at home with my parents. After a year or two of that, I moved into a dorm on campus. And I recall what a breath of fresh air that was for me. So I can relate to what you wrote here. I hope your current level of clarity is permanent.

[Grath]

I often find it very hard to get out of a mental state once I'm in it. I can't "pull myself up by my own bootstraps", because it's nearly impossible for me to channel my thoughts any other way than through that mindset.
Mostly that's the case for me with negative/depressed moods. So I completely know what you're talking about. If I would feel a lot better all of a sudden I think I would be anxious of returning to a more cloudy vision as well.

[Under*Over]

I totally understand this. I fear for my own future- I know what its like to lose control and its terrifying.

I hope that things stay good for you- but you have to do the best you can to help yourself- ok? Even when it feels scary and not enough.

You have to take it day by day, do the best you can, and thats all you can do. Work with things as they come up- and hope that by doing it you catch EVERYTHING before it gets too bad.

Again, good luck to you

[cool09]

Your thinking is clear now but you're afraid that tomorrow you'll lose it? Is this a pattern? My thinking stays the same every day I think even though my mood can change, have high anxiety or heavily ruminate.