[PyramidJacket]

I'm not really sure what forum this fits into... but I really hate this... It has to be one of my biggest problems. Sometimes it bothers me more than my psychosis. The fact that I need someone all the time. I can't be alone, right now I'm sitting in a room by myself and I have to find some way to communicate. I can't stop myself from picking up the phone. I so badly wish I could be independent. I always end up pushing people away because I'm so needy and clingy. It's supposedly a result of my bad childhood.

Does anyone else feel like this?

[altonwoodsdrphil]

realising that you have a problem and wanting to make a change is the hardest part for some people. take stock of who you are as a person,invest in yourself,all of the positive changes will start when you make the first move and just believe in yourself and act on that belief. what is it that you do for yourself that brings you joy? if you don't know,then find it out!

[sassypants]

I use to feel that way when I was a lot younger. I even went
to a support group. That did not work out. I finally realized
that it was okay to be alone, instead of being with people
who treated me... well bad. My self -esteem was very low
at this time.I read a lot of books,took self esteem classes, and finally got mad at myself for being a push over.
Today, I am very independent . I love being alone.There is a saying: Better to be alone, than being accompanied by bad company. I am so sorry you have been going through
this. I know from experience it is a bad way to live. I also
had a unforgettable childhood.

I will keep you in my prayers, and remember we are never
ALL alone. If you know what I mean.
Take care of yourself. :

[Perna]

It's hard to learn to accept help when we need it, we want to feel we don't need others or help but everyone does. The older I get the more I'm trying to accept that.

[PyramidJacket]

Thankyou, all of you. You really made me feel better. It's good to know that other people feel this way too and have gotten out of it. If nothing else, I want to be able to sit in my room and not have to have any means of communication.

I'm talking to a therapist, but I find myself ranting more than listening at the moment.

[Fuzzybear]

I know what you mean although I tend towards avoidance as well I think the most important thing to remember is that it isn't your fault. If you suspend blame its easier to work to change the behaviours ..... as opposed to draining what energy you have by beating yourself up, blaming and labelling yourself.

[rick626]

do you know anything about borderline personality disorder?

I understand the co-dependency thing all to well. The thing that has been most helpful to me is a group I am in called Celebrate Recovery. They have many different groups including copdependency and substance abuse. They follow the tweleve steps only with a biblical view on them. They have meetings in different places across the US and in some other countrys. I think it can give you the locations if you type in Celebrate Recovery in the search bar.