Dont want to be this way..

Ive always known there was something wrong with me, but in my family things were simply not talked about,and is still the same to this day! Some are not willing to accept their roles in what i have become today! I was just last week diagnosed with borderline, previously with bi-polar II, PTSD, GAD, Depression.I feel guilty for the things I say and feel towards my immediate family,but its like, if they know the things that bother me, then why in the hell keep doing them! Is this normal with this disorder? Please give any input, im still confused about this disorder!! Thanks

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I feel guilty for the things I say and feel towards my immediate family,

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Some disorders become the ones who take on responsibility, and that includes guilt. They find themselves in the role fo 'psychic cleaner-upper', or emotional dustbin, they feel and expereince what no one else whants to own. Would that fit with you?
The way I see things is that if theres on disorder in the family, chances are theyve all got disorders. Some disorders just arent invested in searching for truth or in caring all that much, their aspirations, sadly, are elsewhere.
Would any of that match your expereinces?
I have a disorder too, and also always knew there was something wrong with me!!

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