[blueunder]

I have posted in the schizophrenia forum but don't know if I belong there or not. I have been diagnosed with it before, then changed to schizo-affective. But whatever, I'm sure my problems have something to do with personality. At least I'm treated as though I have a problem with it. To me, I'm not all that bad of a person, but for some reason, my family chooses to ignore me, other people tend to avoid me, and I have become an outcast from the general population. From what I've been seeing while surfing around these boards, it seems that most everyone is much more close to normal than me. The serious mental illness that I have has kept me from being involved in life. I can't usually think straight long enough to keep up with people. I'm just sick of people faking with me. If I sound like I have an IQ problem, then let me know. If I'm not cute enough, tall enough, sane enough, interesting enough, just tell me d@#$it! I just get tired of this "well let's fake a little with her again to get her out of our hair" stuff.
I have lived in this community more than 3 years and NO ONE has bothered to say much to me unless it's about something one of my kids might have done in the past or something else that might be wrong with me. That seems to be what people like pointing out. I'm just tired of this.

[Fuzzybear]

Welcome blueunder, from your post it doesn't sound to me that you have a ""low IQ" (whatever that is)

Please keep posting and sharing, as you've probably already seen, many insightful and helpful members post in Personality Place.

Welcome again

[VoNPD]

Welcome!

I think we all 'belong' here!!

[ECHOES]

Welcome here. blueunder. I read your post in the other forum too, and I was wondering if you have ever researched Personality Disorders such as Borderling Personality Disorder.

Borderlines and those with any personality disorder are not bad people, but they have ways of perceiving and reacting that don't work for them the way they want. It isn't unusual for Borderlines to be given other diagnoses.

Do you like to read? "get me out of here" by rachel reiland is a good book about her personal experience with Borderline. Another good book is "I Hate You / Don't Leave Me" by Jerold Kreisman & Hal Strauss.

Here are some links to some additional reading:
Psych Central: Personality Disorders , WebMD: Borderline PD Overview , Psychology Today: Borderline

Long term psychotherapy has been recently determined to be the most promising treatment.

For me, the severe mood shifts is the most difficult symptom. I can be perfectly fine one moment, then intensely desparing the next. It makes it seem as if the world is moving too fast for me to keep up--I want to scream for everything to stop a minute! It takes work with a good psychotherapist to help slow down these shifts to learn about them, to learn what they're about, what the anger is about. I was lucky to find a psychoanalytic psychotherapist who is comfortable working with the diagnosis, although I did not know the diagnosis until I had been seeing her for a year. Historically, my diagnosis has been depression with anxiety or anxiety with depression. Finally with the Borderline diagnosis, I have a better term that really fits and that makes me feel like not such a freak.

I hope the links are helpful to you.

[MyBestKids2]

Welcome blueunder

I have to agree with everyone else, and we welcome you here. I know how you feel, I have very few (1 or 2) more than collegueish relationships.

Please know there are lots of kind and supportive people here, and we would love to talk with you!

Take care,

Dee

[Doh2007]

I speak schizoaffective. Talk to me.