[tavares7]

I was just wondering if it seems like I may have BPD?
I'm a 16 year old male.
I was sort of sexually abused when I was younger (it's a complicated story). I have a huge fear that the world is just going to shut me out (like I lose everyone I know and whatnot). I self-mutilate myself (stopped for 2 years until recently). I have thoughts of suicide and how I'm going to do it. I'm starting to take double (or more) of Tylenol PM because I can't fall asleep before 3-4am everynight, no matter that I try. And I take loads of Excedrin whenever.
Also at my work McDonald's I'm an under 18 manager, and I have been getting talked to by superiors a lot lately because of "terrible mood swings and outbursts of anger" and "You live and think ONLY in a black & white world".
I don't go to highschool (taking the GED path) and that took a weight off my shoulder but I feel everyone looks at me with discust and hate and talks about me behind my back because I'm a failure.
I have never had stable friendships, family relationships, or a relationship with a girlfriend. I seem to have a lot of friends and then I lose them and make more and that has always repeated. But now I have basically NO friends at all. No best friend and not even one close friend. But when I do have friends, I tend to be clingly and/or jump into relationships quickly.
I like to show-off stuff a lot as well.
I am pretty self concious about how I look. I have also been eating a lot more lately.
I also feel worthless and have been told a lot I am extremely paranoid.

I just want to know if it sounds like BDP, or maybe I am just paranoid. I have something, I must. I just don't know what.

[ECHOES]

Whatever you want to call your group of symptoms you mention, it sound like you would like your life to be better.

Talking with a therapist will help you and the therapist figure out how to help your life be more comfortable.

[RiverX]

Yeah, but surely its more than about being more comfortable, it sounds like you've got some deep things to work through and you deserve understaning and support.

Your situations sounds painful at present, but you are searching and willing to look at your deep issues which means I think you will get well and be an inspiration and help to others. I have lived so many lonely times, but i had nothing like your self awareness when I was your age, so well done!

therapists can help enormously, but keep your intincts with you whilst you choose.

riverx

[x_BabyG_x]

Aww hun have you got anyone to talk to about this? A therapist or a doctor might be able to give you a diagnosis

babyg xXx

[BorderlineVNYC]

Hey buddy

Your symptoms sound a lot like mine, and BPD is what I was recently diagnosed with. Who knows what the name is?

I know it sucks, try to stick it out.