[martyn_d]

OK i don't really know how to start this but here goes. Ive always coincided myself to be anti social. i dont get along with none of my family due to the fact that i have had a bad up bringing, i also don't have have many friends and most of the time seem to lie to them to get out of social events and basically just to get away from them. all through my childhood was bullied. i have lived on my own 4 the last 6 yrs and in that time other than work i don't talk to any1 and when im at work if i don't have to talk to them i wont. i have thought about suicide and have committed many acts of self harm. and now because of the fact that i have just been promoted at work Ive found my self suffering alot more because of the fact that most of the job depends on socializing with them. now that this is now effecting my job and my life because this is bringing me down and making me stressed about it. i decided to look it up on the internet and to see if i could find something to help me with this. that's how i happened upon this site and this page. so i decided to post a thread to see what other people think and to help me with my current situation. thanks martyn

[jbug]

I wanted to say Welcome to Psychcentral!

I can't say what you have or don't have as I'm not a professional but if it's bothering you, then maybe you could talk to a therapist or a trusted friend.

On Psychcentral there are quizzes you could take that might give you an idea but they aren't designed to diagnose.

I just wanted to roll out the welcome mat and say if you have any further questions or problems don't hestitate to PM me.

Jbug

[RiverX]

Hi and welcome.
I have been diagnosed with schizoid pd, and from what you say I think this could be fairly accurate for you too. Theres a lot of reason to feel hopeful, ...

I often become aleinated in a group and feel isolated, see things differently from everyone else. I also was a left out type of person at school. Its not easy, painful at times in life.
another term for schizoid is 'self in exile'. The flip side of the coin of that is the delicacy we have ineternally that makes it difficult to protect ourselves, our boundaries in relationship to others.
I have a lot of recovery compared to how things were, but still a long way to go also...
pm me if you would like to, you could also check out this website:

www.selfinexile.com

as well as this, there are some Ts who are specially trained and who have a lot of understanding of this disorder........ I can give you more info if you'd like.

riverx

[Sannah]

Hi Martyn, welcome. I don't think that diagnoses are all that valuable. I think what helps is working on the issues. You didn't have a good upbringing and you were bullied. This would have kept you from learning social skills, having a healthy self-esteem, learning healthy boundaries, etc., etc., etc. All of these things can be worked on and you can then have a better life. This is what I did. Do you have a therapist?

[RiverX]

Hi Sannah,
felt impelled to respond to this.... dx was a gateway to freedom for me.
Something akin to being in pain in a foot all my life, wondering why others could walk without pain...
and then finding the splinter............

AHA!

[Greg77733]

Hi, I am bpd and antisocial too. I can't lable you but you could be borderline. We throw up walls to proteck ourselfs from the past and what might happen. I have been told I get along better with dogs and horses. I agree. Well, welcome to site and like she said, you need to see a therapist to get a true label. Takecare

[martyn_d]

no i don't have a therapist and wouldn't even know where to start to get 1. thanks to all the reply's any more advice would be very greatfull.

[Zloppy]

Hey Martyn,

I am Schizoid but undiagnosed. I am like 98% sure I have it. I am always in my room alone, I have not gotten a job, (I'm almost 17) just because I hate interaction with other people. The kind of job I want is to be the person stacking boxes in the back of a store (although I want to be a music producer when I get out of High School, which I am glad that job has little interaction with people because you are with a band for a bit recording and not like it's a new person every minute or so you have to deal with). I am the person at school with only a few friends, and even then, I don't really like talking much with them or being around them for long periods of time. On personality quizzes, I have always had very high for Schizoid. I have only asked a girl out once, but she said no, and even if I were in a relationship I would be the WORST person ever. I would be quiet and not know what to do next and it would be completely awkward. I understand what you are saying. I have also self injured a lot, and suicide is constantly on my mind. Pretty scary things.

What would determine in my opinion if you have Schizoid or not are:

1) Have you ever been in a relationship?
2) If so, how many and how long did each last about.
3) Do you enjoy most activities you do?
4) How many close friends do you have, or how many friends do you have?
5) Do you express emotions well? (this is the one that may lead to SI)

Those are somethings to just think about. They are some of the stuff related to Schizoid