This is soooooooo hard..........

hugs P7
~as far as teh pain stuff goes ,just,,,,,,,,GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
~we writed what cc casewiojker is wanting us ta do in above post
~the social securitey they just taked away some of uor childresn survivor xcheck money cuz someone else the letter did not saay wh o ias make a claim on dads social securty so they have ta take some away froim beads to pay the other persobn
~nuthign mater rite now...........dotn care abuot nuthign adn telled T that he says that worries him...........still beads says like so what ya know....we dotn matter anywasy just dont care riute now
beads

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I hope you are feeling better and that things dont get to you too much. Things always have a way of working out

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ALL of us beadys is feel totally hopeless that life is ever gonna improve, that we is ever gonna feel any gooder, that we is ever gonna get the bill collecters offa her back, that we is ever gonna be loved by teh person what it matters most far it ta come from,,,,,,,,,etc...ect....etc.........
like the list cuodl go on and on and on

No Hope

beads does not enjoy life, never has,,,,,we dont even live it.........just keep surviveing more adn more garbage adn far what reason?????????
dunno y we keeps put one foot in front of other evry day.......its gettin old
sorry far how depressign this post is, catn help its wear we is
all of us beadys

Did you ask your T about the PASS plan???

I am sorry that you are feeling hopeless! .... I can remember hearing over and over again how sometimes you have to hit bottom first before you rise again???????? Could this hopelessness be from stopping denial or something?????

hey sannah! ty
ummmm far the first questoin yeah we talk a little bit abuot it to him and tell hjim we dotn want to cuz not want to mkae thigns worse then what they already is adn also that we is about ready to tell the CC peoples to take a flyign leap adn not see them no more. sorry but dont really remember his anser are iffen he even did.
we is not really sure where it is come from ( the hopeless) but T telled us ALL to write how we is feel adn why. he said he is looking for clues ta try figure uot whats wrogn. Sannah dunno how we is gonna do this cuz so disconnected from all of us. does that make sense. also we is suppot ta be doign like a 'family tree' of all of us in uor head . l;ike yeah rite adn we is suposd ta have this done today!!!!>???? no clue h ow we is gonna acomplish this. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

thanks far the hugs Sannah!!
we got the pictuer like thign of wear everyone in her head done on time adn T email saiyed we done really good job on it YAY!
but we has not gotteds even start on the other 'homework'. we is realy good at puttign stuff off that we dont think we can do. like aviod it. BAD BEADS!!!!!
hugs,
all of us beadys

Yah!!!!!!!!!! Good Work!

Why don't you think that you can do it???

sannah just suonds like a overwhelming large amt. of work and since not in communication with everyone yet its kinda hard ta get everyone pinoin on the same page does that make sense? we mite try to work on this today dunno............had a great biog blowup with d yesterday,,,,,,,,well two of them really he says we broke a plate adn stuff adn dont remember it..........well like so what else is new?!but really get sick of this we d one are siad whatever and have no remembery of it sooooooooo frustrateing..........but anyway we got into it big time adn yesterday was REALLY a bad day so has most of the other days hear lately been gettign just abuot had enuf of life period.
beads

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How about just getting a few to write? Start wherever you are at????? Making the project overwhelming makes it hard to get started.

Is this the first time that you are standing up to Don?

can you just do one part at a time ? somtimes when you start it gets easier ..if that makes any sense at alll ....

hoping you are feeling better

P7

hi thanks fuzzy, p7 adn sannah!.
ummm sannah T has been workign with beads to try adn teach us this is okay adn that we can stand up to him we does try sometime but it dont do no good are change anything so like what is the point? why bother?
also mary susan writeds how she is feeling,,,,, well not really how her feelign but what her thunkeds she need T help her do so shc can feel gooder. personaely i hate mary susan so i cuold care less weather are not mark help her just as long as she dont try adn maek us all go away agin. she hateds us to.
dunnow why we dont wanna do this assmigenmnt T give us ta do but still aint even gotteds start adn we see him tonite at 5:00 far a huor adn a half. that of itsefl is scairey cuz we will be in teh hot seat that much longer toneit.
marsidotz

There is a reason why you are avoiding this............

hi ssannah. sory it taken beads so long ta anser. we has beened sick ont op of it all. aint been in rite mood are flt good enuf ta be hear.
yeah, T knows their is several of us what does not like each ohter.............he isa try ta help us lerned how ta get along. its hzard not used to it.
we never did do that assignment and we is hopign T has forgot abuot it cuz he no bring it up again. dunno y we has avuoided it so much. still are tho.
they put us on some newq medicien smnytax are somethign not sure of spellign and tooked her offa some of the risperdal. not sure how long this will take ta no iffen it work are not but hope soon cuz we just kees gettign fartehr and farther into the dumps.
beads

Hi Beads, I am so sorry that you haven't been feeling so well! I'm sure that your T is understanding where you are at with that assignment. Do you think that you are feeling more depressed because you are doing some hard work with T and looking at some painful things?

hugs sannah..............yeah that prolly has somethign to do with it. funny we never made the conectoin bafore. the new medicine stinks. we go to bed about 11 are so adn are back up within two hours and not very restful sleep in between.grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. we see t tomotow adn since t and pdoc work in same bldg we are gonna tell t it aint helpign sleep is even worse now adn depreasoin no gooder mbae he can do somethign they can chagne it. do u remember that movie blazing saddles..............the lady dancer did a song in that called "i'm soooooooooooooo tired' ". beads no how she feels.
mary susan

Keep me posted on how you are doing, okay?