[DivideByZero]

I think I am having a full blown nervous breakdown. I think I am too sensitive to survive in this world, it is too harsh for me.

[DangerMagnet]

((DivideByZero)) what's going on to make you feel that way tonight?

[DivideByZero]

constant nightmares, feeling like I am ill and in pain all the time, no concentration, degenerating cerebral abilities, dissociation, harrowing sadness that will not go away, horrible existential angst, constant tiredness, no social-buy in, retreating into myself, no feelings of hope, no urge to continue feeling like this

[(JD)]

I'm sorry you're in so much angst.

I agree, that doesn't sound like a very good life at the moment. In the interest of helping you climb out of that hole you're in... tell us what you are doing and trying in self care?

Things won't always seem so horrible. Not sleeping well is obviously contributing to the "unbearableness" of it all! I'd work on that aspect primarily, even if it means sleeping in the daytime.

[Typo]

((((((((((DividebyZero)))))))))))))

I know how you feel, I have been there, hold on hun there is hope, nothing bad last forever, I have found when I get like that to be very gentle with myself, and do little things that make me smile, like go for a walk, or hold my comfort object close. Remember to keep you safe, do you have a T you can talk to?

If you need to talk feel free to pm anytime

please take gentle care of yourself, you are cared for and vauled.

Sending many peaceful thoughts to you
Typo

[DivideByZero]

ACCEPTS:
Activities
Contributing
Comparisons
Emotions
Pushing Away
Thoughts
Sensations

WAIT:
Watch Emotions
Action is not necessary
Internally experience the emotion
Think of painful emotions as helpers.

Thanks for your soothing words.

[billieJ]

We do not make diagnoses here, Dividebyzero, but you seem to be experiencing, possibly along with other things, some severe depressive symptoms. Have you obtained a therapist or seen a psychiatrist or even an MD with your symptoms, which you so ably, succinctly and knowledgably describe? I know each feeling that you describe, or at least, I know my version of it. Are you stopping or starting some medication which could account for the nightmares? Can you pinpoint some source for your nightmares and feelings? Your writing says that you are very intelligent, and, very often the super-intelligent also feel too sensitive to survive in the insenstate world. There is too much ugliness, insensitivity and commonness here for you to feel understood. That said, you may feel that you stand on the "edge" of the planet, about to plummet over into nothingness in your imagined solitude. Welcome to PC. Here, you will find camaraderie, support, intelligent companionship and empathy. I hope that you will use your talents as well as your experience with suffering to offer information and support to others here. WELCOME. billieJ