Awesome week ENDS--*TRIGGERED*Now I have to tell T?!

Saturday night I was thinking about my stalker and what is to happen in a few months when the order of protection ends. I can't stand being in sight of him and know that I won't be able to handle it then. Like anyone who thinks about something, you imagine and see it as a transparent image--normal. Okay, but then the scene changed and it became non-transparent with an image of him staring at me through my car window! I was sitting in my car at the time in a parking lot. I did okay, but it was a little freaky, especially how the scene changed like that and to being no longer transparent. MG! A flashback?! I don't want to be saying this. It only lasted a second.

Just now, I opened an email sent to me by a friend. I used to work with *him* at a temp job for a few weeks earlier this year. It was clear from the beginning that he was interested in me. He wasn't "obvious", but I got subtle hints. With my history, I am very in tune to how others feel. My PTSD related problems have prevented me from ever meeting him for coffee or something, but but we have exchanged occasional text messages or emails if my PTSD'ing was up to it. We even talked on the phone once a couple months ago. Well, the emails I just opened from him are more triggering than imagining my stalker staring at me--my "friend" emailed me pics of *HIMSELF*. Get that? He sent me pictures taken with his camera phone of his errection!!! Needless to say, I am a little emotional and untrusting right now. I don't have my T until tomorrow night--after I planned to talk to the shelter caseworker about job stuff and my stalker and after my interview in the afternoon. I am supposed to have my computer class before my T, too. I'd rather have my T in the morning. Wonder if he'd mind if I left a brief venting vmail on his pager to try and get me through till we meet? I've been rather quiet and haven't been doing that as much lately. I am sure he's been enjoying the break. Maybe I should change my phone number again and put a block on this guys emails? This isn't good.

(((( Inky ))))

"Maybe I should change my phone number again and put a block on this guys emails? This isn't good."

No, it isn't good and I would block any access this guy has to you right away.

I'm so sorry that happened.

Stay safe.

Petunia

Sure, why not? You can even change emails.... nothing that hasn't been done before by thousands! TC ((((inky)))