It took a lot of courage, in me, to tell my doctor that it wasn't going well for me, that I was badly depresse.

Only reply I got from my doctor is"I don't want to hear about your personnal problems".

Then a flashback. I see my mother telling me:" I don't want to hear about your brother hitting you!"

What to do now? Shut up? I guess!

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[h0kie]

Was this a general practicioner? If it was, contact a psychiatrist or therapist and change GPs. What a horrible beside manner. I'd even think about writing a letter to someone above him/her telling about his/her lack of interest in your health.

Yes, she is a GP. I don't think I can have an appointment with someone else unless she refers me and I don't think she will do that.

She just made me cried. I don't feel I can say this again to someone else. It was so hard to say it to her. And the " Shut up!!!" in my mind.

Thank you for caring!

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[h0kie]

Hubby had a pdoc that we didn't like. He didn't feel comfortable telling her that so we made up an excuse. (We couldn't work with her hours) She referred us without a problem. Good luck though, whatever you decide.

Pdocs and ts are usually unrelated to GPs, so try getting an appointment there. They're usually much more understanding and helpful.

[dottie]

I have been searching for a GP with a decent bedside manner. So far...can't find one. Sorry sacks 'o'&&^%%$#

Hope you can find one soon. Now that's depressing..

Good luck.

~Dottie

Thank you for replying again!

Around where I live I'm lucky to have an appointment once a year with a doctor. I know I have been depresse for a long time now and I had to come to this point (I'm not allow to say this word here) before reaching out to get some help. My doctor did trow me a prescription of Willbutrim and told me to make another appointment in about 6 months. So do I try those medication? I never been on anti depressant before and she doesn't want to see me before 6 months. This is very confusing. She didn't guided me at all with this. I don't have nobody to talk too.

It is hard for me to ask for help. I feel guilty doing so probably because I never had the right to ask in my pass. It's like I'm doing something wrong just by talking about it.

It's not easy founding a doctor here and the waiting list in long, very long.

Again thank you!

time0

Thank you for the welcome! By doing this, you make me feel a bit less scare to write here. I appreciate it!

I will take every guidance people can give me here!

time0

Thank you for the "Good luck"!

And good luck to you too. I know it's not easy.

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[h0kie]

Why not give it a try? If it doesn't work in a few months (sometimes it takes a while), you can always stop taking it.

[(JD)]

Welcome to Psychcentral Time0. First, you need to ask your GP for a referral... and that means someone to prescribe meds and possibly another someone to talk with! Psychiatrists usually just prescribe these days... psychologists do the talk therapy with us.

If she won't refer, then ask your insurance company for one, or to have THEM ask her.

If they won't , you can go to the ER for emergency counseling help, they usually have at least a social worker to talk with people who walk in.

Then, if all else fails you, have you considered ONLINE therapy? You need to talk with someone about these feelings.

At the VERY least (which is argueable) you can continue to come here and post, and come into chat with the members here!

TC of yourself!

Yes, I will try the medication. I have nothing to lose except that my other part wants to die.

Thank you for your guidance and your time.

time0

Thank you very much for the welcome and your guidance!

It would be nice to have a psychologist. I don't know if I would be able to say anything though but it would be nice to even try.

I don't have insurance and not much money either. I just have enough to survive, meaning just enough to buy a bit of food. I will have to borrow money from someone to buy the medication. I think I know someone who can help me with that. I hope anyway.

Oh dear, the ER! That's another trigger for me. I'm very scare of hospital! I don' think I can go there.

Thank you for inviting me in the chatroom. That's very nice!

I will try my best!

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Welcome!!

Thank you for the welcome!

Take care of yourself ok
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[CompGeek]

Your doctor should not have said that to you. If i were you i would look into finding a psychologist to talk to. in reality your doctor should have listened to you and if he/she could not help you should have refered you to some one who can. the fact that you had flashback would definitly make me think that maybe seeing a thearpist might be a good idea.

Thank you for your guidance and support!

My doctor did really trew me out of balance with her words. I know I am very vulnerable lately and it doens't take much to hurt me but her words did hit me hard. It took me back in time. She closed the door that had taken me so long just to open a bit.

I started the medication and I'm trying very hard to not give up. I'm trying.

Again thank you!

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[(JD)]

doctors can do that, yeah they can... which is why their FIRST order is "First, do no harm." I'm afraid more and more doctors are forgetting this. sigh. I see my MD Tuesday....and maybe I will find out more if she is on my team, or against me... esp regarding the driving issue (her issue, not mine.) TC

"First do no harm"

This is very good. It makes sense as they are there to help people not harm them. But some are only there for the money or are too tired or too stress out or simply have not studied in that field, like depression.
But all this doesn't help us and it is already so hard to explain what is going on in our mind.

I sure hope your doctor will be more understanding and caring then mine. When you are limited physically as I understand you are, driving can be real important not only to go where you want to go but for your right state of mind. This should be make clear to her. I sure wish for you that you can keep your driving right.

Take good care and thank you!

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"First do no harm" For me, I think this can apply to everyone really.

[eskielover]

I personally would not use any psych meds without having a psychiatrist that is knowledgable about the meds. GP's just don't know enough about those kinds of meds to do any prescribing let alone waiting 6 months to have you come back after taking them. Initially you need to be monitored way more often than 6 months when you start taking psych meds.....like Wellbutrin or any others....first off, when I took Wellbutrin, I ended up with massive weight loss that landed me in into the hospital on IV nutrition....

You really need to be going to a DR that specializes in depression & mental issues. My GP this year treated me for the physical effects that my mental issues caused, but would not continue treating it without there being help from my psychiatrist. Even when I was in the medical hospital, my GP called in the hospitals pdoc & psychologist to treat me during the 2 months I was there.

Please find those Dr's that know how to treat the problem you are having.....that is what specialists are for.....& that is why there are pdocs (psychiatrists) to prescribe psych meds & psychologists or Therapists to talk through what is bothering you.

Debbie

First of all thank you!

I have not been taking this medication for long and it didn't had an effect on my eating but what I wanted mostly for this medication to do is to take away this thought that I couldn't get rid off but this medication is doing quite the opposite and bringing this thought of mine even stronger. Maybe it takes a bit longer to work right?

I don't have money but I did tried to found someone who would help me with free therapy. I couldn't found anyone yet. And this is so scaring me. I never talked about myself before.

I have a hard time asking for help and I don't trust.

Thank you!

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[eskielover]

time0,

I was where you were at about 11 1/2 years ago. I went all my life without needing any outside help with my feelings.....then wham. I remember going into the pdoc & psychologist's offices just shaking with a total lump in my throat & knot in my stomach. They would ask questions & I just didn't know how to answer.....always being such a private person......never letting out anything....& didn't trust anyone with my innermost feelings.

I have since learned how to open up some.....however still not enough to probably get the most out of their treatments. My pdoc really does know me pretty well & has gone through so many of my horrible reactions to meds that he is willing to listen to me & not force meds that won't work.....actually he is afraid to give me anything....along with my GP since my reactions to meds are so horrible.

I hope you can find some good free therapy...I know it is available. I know that the hospice care I had for my Mother 5 days before she died has free grief counselling....however my issues surrounding my Mothers death were under the PTSD heading & they had no clue on how to help me work through what I am now trying to deal with. I had to bite the bullet & pay 50% in order to get a psychologist who was willing to deal with the trauma issues that I am going through.

I hope that posting here will help you open up some & help you understand more about what you are feeling.....sometimes doing an internal search or realizing how you are feeling about some other post can bring you into touch with yourself.

Please take care & hope you can really find the appropriate professionals to help you.

Debbie

[CedarS]

How are you doing today time0?

Most of us have had, or still have, challenges with trusting and asking for help, you will find lots of our stories here and also lots of ideas. Know that you are not alone.

As for intrusive thoughts, does your community have any type of free crisis phone hot line? Mine does, staffed by trained volunteers, it can help a lot. If you are worried about your own safety, if the thoughts are getting to be too much, I hope you have access to something like this.

Sarah

Thank you for caring!

Many hugs!
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Thank you for your concern! Your reply strike me. Nobody is really concern about me. They think I will live forever.

Again thank you!

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