[Yack]

Ok, stupid question...

Once you "crack" from an incident that causes PTSD, do you ever feel normal again? As you guys know, my situation was 9 months long, not a lifetime, but I have been unable to handle anything for one year (except one class). I think Sky said it comes and goes.

I am constantly doubting myself and my capabilities...I am afraid of what the future will bring...

Thinking I am never going to get married and stupid things like that.

Feeling very unlike "myself"...It's hard to describe....After I left court I felt like I was 5 years old. I still feel that way but I am getting better, slowly...and now I am thinking, "Oh, no, I have to handle everything everyone else my age does and I have been through all of this".

Everyone says I sound better but still...It's hard. It really is.

I am freaked out.

[Yack]

I feel like I keep asking the same questions. Oh dear...

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((jackie)))))))))))))

it does come in "waves". The waves will probably never not come, but they will be smaller and much farther between as time goes on.

Right now these waves have the capability to knock you off your feet, soon, I hope, it will be nothing more than a ripple.

KD

[Lexicon78]

You sound a lot like me. After all the hell I went through, I still didn't grow up emotionally. I feel like I'll forever be 11 years old. I still feel like a scared little girl. Gosh, and it's been so long! You'd think at some point in my life I'd grow up emotionally to my real age...27!

Hang in there!

[(JD)]

((((yack)))) it IS difficult! Do your best, stay in therapy... work work work on retraining the brain... I know it isn't "logical" that if we can think of what is the problem and if we know that we don't want to feel that way etc. etc. etc.. then we shouldbe able to fix it or get over it NOW. But it doesn't work that way. It just doesn't.

IMO, One of the best things you can do for yourself is to tell yourself that this is the disorder.. .these feelings are the disorder... you're thinking and feeling and reacting because it's the disorder that causes it... and you are doing the best you (or anyone) can do and are going to get through this, eventually.

[Yack]

T and I discussed some of events yesterday....she told me not to. Big mistake.

I am getting agitated again...feeling weird, overwhelmed, upset...scared?

Last week my head had cleared for the first time in a long time...

I do not want to lapse back...to where I was...