[porcupine2]

10 years ago I had 4 nights in a row of a dream that a jet was crashing thru my living room window and then 9/11 happened. That's was a major trigger for all types of anxieties, I had anxiety issues for years before this but it had leveled off some before this happened. Now I find myself frozen and cannot seem to take any sort of public transportation, especially under the new terror threat. I myself am a 9/11 conspiracy believer. Not sure how I'll get through these next few days cuz it's everywhere you look.

[SoupDragon]

I went up to Twin Towers back in 1990 and I find it really hard watching the 9/11 stuff - my stuff feels minor compared to people who were there living it and in many ways I feel I have no right to feel the way I do.

In the Uk there have been a lot of programmes on TV about 9/11 - I have cried watching these stories. However I have also been struck by the fact that although it was such an evil event, that there were also great miracles happening that day. I am not a religious person, but it seems that amongst that evil and hatred, there was also remarkable purity and people with angel like qualities who held each others hands.

I too now have such a fear of flying I have promised to visit my brother in California but don't know how I would ever get on a plane.

Thinking of everyone who experienced this horrific event.

[popeye]

I keep thinking something is goig to happen on 9/11.

[MysticTheSheperd]

Im like half numb with my feelings about 9-11 I tend to feel alot of emotional pain and anxiety right on 9-11 and tend to relive it but most of the time I just keep trying to shove it inside deep inside I was one of the ones that was there to help with rescue efforts and with already having ptsd and depression before 9-11 I dont really talk about my feelings and emotions I had through it all to help with not having triggers since I got so many other triggers i go through from what got me my ptsd and depression

[porcupine2]

Originally Posted by MysticTheSheperd

Im like half numb with my feelings about 9-11 I tend to feel alot of emotional pain and anxiety right on 9-11 and tend to relive it but most of the time I just keep trying to shove it inside deep inside I was one of the ones that was there to help with rescue efforts and with already having ptsd and depression before 9-11 I dont really talk about my feelings and emotions I had through it all to help with not having triggers since I got so many other triggers i go through from what got me my ptsd and depression

Bless you for all you have done. I'll be glad when I can turn on the TV again because I left it off the last 2 days. Everything was 9/11. And then the new threats didn't help. Keep strong, and I will try too.

[MysticTheSheperd]

Thank you porcupine2 Im doing my best to keep strong and hope your doing the same.

I live in Manhattan, about 2 miles north of Ground Zero. I'm a native NYer and was home the day of the attacks; fortunately, I did not work downtown. I lost two neighbors in the attack and know a few others who managed to escape from the Towers - one just barely doing so.

I've watched some of the 9-11 commemorative specials on TV and have turned off others. They are just too much. I managed to go to two church services (for different religions!) yesterday to help me deal with the issues raised by the anniversary. It helped a lot to not deal with it alone. And, both services had wise words spoken that were very helpful. The second service was full of firemen. (It was the home church of Father Mychal Judge.) Though the church was so full that I had to stand for the entire service, I was so glad to have experienced it.

Here in NYC, citizens ride mass transit all the time. So far, since the attacks, it has been safe. But still, as a good citizen, I am cautious. I noted that security was heightened yesterday. There were soldiers in some locations with guns in their hands for the safety of citizens. Still, though, I was vigilant. I wanted to go the drugstore but it was located in the Empire State Building - clearly a target if there is one. I chose another location as a precaution.

I don't know you well enough to comment on your dreams. Still, you have to look at the facts. The USA has not suffered terrorist attacks on public transportation. And, attacks on public transportation in other nations has been in large cities. I think you're a lot safer in New Mexico that I am here in New York City. And, I still ride public transportation as do thousands of others here on a daily basis. Have you see a therapist about your 9-11 triggers? I hope you got through the anniversary okay.

[Open Eyes]

Well, we made it through without another attack. At least for yesterday. I did watch some of the tributes and memories of events that took place that day and how it effected different people in so many ways. And many of those people now have PTSD and some initially found therapy to not be helpful, but did try again and were more successful at learning ways to deal with it. It made me think of my own battles and to keep trying and that it is difficult.

I realize that none of us have any way of knowing what each day will bring and things can go very badly. But we also cannot sit everyday and wait for something bad to happen because often we just do not have that kind of control. All any of us can do is try to be prepared as best as we can and take each day as it comes.

I didn't watch it all day, I allowed myself a certain amount of time and then made sure that I didn't allow myself to ruminate about it. And I am not trying to say that it was not a significant event and downplay it at all. But I cannot live everyday fearing the worst, it doesn't do anyone any good.

Open Eyes

[AJ10]

i was 8 yeers old and i had a broken leg. now my uncel keeps telling me 2 brek my leg. wen i was watching the towers go down it reminded me of being in that pe class and heering them say wat happended. it was a reely scary day 4 me....

[Morningdove]

My brother-in-law was in the Pentagon on 9/11. His offices were where the plane hit. Thankfully his offices were being renovated. He was in a different office. The blast picked him up and tossed thin across the room. One of his workers was in the renovated offices setting up the phones. He didn't make it. It was 4:30 that afternoon before we found out he was alive. I still can't watch anything on 9/11. I just recently started listening to the radio again. I missed a lot of music because of the news on the radio and the songs that came out right after the event. It has scared me for life. I do want to thank you for being there to help. We lost so many that day and many first responders. I am glad you made it and could help. I won't say it will get better with time. Only God knows that.

Originally Posted by MysticTheSheperd

Im like half numb with my feelings about 9-11 I tend to feel alot of emotional pain and anxiety right on 9-11 and tend to relive it but most of the time I just keep trying to shove it inside deep inside I was one of the ones that was there to help with rescue efforts and with already having ptsd and depression before 9-11 I dont really talk about my feelings and emotions I had through it all to help with not having triggers since I got so many other triggers i go through from what got me my ptsd and depression