[iflyaway]

i feel so strange doing this. My therapist gave me this site and said i should do this. At the age of 17 i was attacked and became pregnant (miscarried) none of my family knows thats alive now i'm 29. It was my first xperience and he was HIV postive luckly i'm not. Now my ptsd as kicked up so severely i barely can function. Normally it last a week or so its been almost 2 months and we don't know what to do. I hate night i can't sleep i can't sleep without something byme if then. I always am looking outside i can't keep anything down it takes all i have in me not to want to rip my skin off b/c i feel him. i can't breathe shake. i feel like i'm coming unglued the flashes are constant. i've do the breathing i even repeat everything i see so i don't break. Any ideas?

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((iflyaway))))))))))))))))))

welcome to PC! I'm glad you came. There are many of us who can share and relate with you. YOU ARE NOT ALONE...not here.

I'm sorry this episode is lasting so long. It can be hell on earth, I know.

In times like this, I used to have to do MASSIVE self talk...almost repetitively, and continually repeat my surroundings to self. Also, I would do things that involved my hands and head to CREATE, but not to the point of frustration...things like paint by number kits, puzzles, etc. I can calm so much there and hours pass and it helps to "trick" my brain from being so hypervigilent and panicked.

We're here. We care.

kd

[(JD)]

hi ifly... sorry you are feeling so desperate. Sounds like a smart T you have

Yes, grounding exercises are important. PTSD is a beast. Sorry you have been triggered so strongly... keep telling yourself it's in the past, it isn't happening now...

and? try and distract yourself. Try.

TC, and again, welcome.

[iflyaway]

thank you both its hard b/c im also in a wheelchair so tricky thank for letting me know i'm not alone in this.

Welcome ifly!

Sorry to hear of your situation. There are lots of good people here who understand. You may find some helpful info just reading others experiences.

Have you tried listening to music or relaxation tapes? That sometimes helps me, but I've also been known to blast some loud rock music into my head via headphones. Helps clear out the invasive clutter and keeps me focused.

There are lots of grounding techniques listed at the top of this forum you may find helpful as well.

Keep posting, that will help too.

Petunia

how about asking your therapist to make a relaxation type recording for you to listen to. My therapist just a few weeks ago recorded a couple relaxation exercises and it helps me alot. Came in real handy last night, today and right now I am listening to one of then while typing this.

Do you like any type of animals? I know my cat is the biggest coward on earth so much so that when a friend stayed here for a couple weeks she bought a little pet store mouse and the result was my cat hid under the bed. LOL I find that funny considering he befriends guinea pigs and birds but anyway peting, playing with and taking care of my cat helps alot.

[Rhapsody]

YOU are not alone.... WE will help you as you travel the path set before you - for better or for worse.... We are a family here.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

P.S.
Some good reading material... a book called:
Feelings Buried Alive Never Die, by: Karol Truman.

[Gemstone]

People have given you some good sugestions already. I don't really have any to add, but I just wanted to say welcome to PC.

[iflyaway]

hi thank you for all your advice much of my therapist and i have tried and some we have yet to so i'll try it . Thank you for all your good wishes and hope.