[dpadilla89]

well, last friday i realized that i always have been having flashbacks since i was like 12. i just realize it now and im 16. now, i have to go to residential maybe. and i finally realize what causes my anger and anxiety. i never been abused or anything but, things..little things cause im too sensitive, traumatize me..weather it was being stuck with a bat in a small closet in the dark, or being tremandesly jealous of my mom. and my mom and dad's divorce, and my ex boyfriend and i having sex but then i wanted to stop and he wouldnt-and i couldnt get him off me. it hurts alot. and lately, i have been having flashbacks of these things and more every each minute if the dat. and it again, it hurts. heh. idkk...now i might have to go to residential, and i have HORRIBLE seperation anxiety on top of it. But i also regret some of it because i never realized it, or even tried to think that that was the problem in my life. i could of been on the right meds all these years and maybe the right kind of therapy. sucks..

well, thanks for letting me share. i appreachiate it.

deb

your post states - "I never been abused or anything"

I personally would call being stuck in a closet with a bat (animal) emotional abuse, I also consider being stuck in a closet with a bat (wooden) emotional abuse because there had to be something going emotional going on that you or whoever put you there needed you to be in the closet.

regardless of who it is - boyfriend, relative, husband, stranger and no matter what the situation be it walking on the street, a date, or time at home --- rape is defined as sexual intercourse where one person does not want the sex and the other person continues with the act. Rape is abuse.

Hang in there. Talk with your therapist about the flashbacks I have flashbacks too and I can tell you from experience they will stop.