[(JD)]

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<center>Lotta upset this week for me. Nothing is worth it.

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[Gemstone]

{{{{{ Sky }}}}}}

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( Sky )))))))))))))))

[wi_fighter]

(((((((((((((((Sky))))))))))))))

[hillbunnyb]

Hey Sky, hang in there sweetie. Listen to the birdies sing for a minute. Bunniebumpies 4 U ))))))) ) ))SKY ((((((( ( ((

[pegasus]

((((((((((((((( Sky )))))))))))))))))))))

Wanna come under the brolly?

[(JD)]

OK! Thanks all... I'm hitting the off button more and more Couldn't make it without you wonderful members here!

[(JD)]

maybe this will help too...



Yes, I feel better now.

[(JD)]

but I'm still awake from the stress!

[lenjan]

Hope you get to feeling better, Sky.

[(JD)]

Thank you I found another one I like:
yeah gonna sweep up the dust around my "place."

[pegasus]

The chilli wants to join in with the banana!

[(JD)]

It's good (in a bad way) that the reason my other sadness/stress thread was deleted won't happen to this one. I knew it wasn't fair, that my entire thread be taken, rather than just the offender's postings. PC put up with such offences for too many months.

This has greatly affected me. I'm just holding it inside, not airing it. Maybe by the end of MAY, if it's still eating at me, I'll share it in T session.

Remember my thread also, about fearing being attacked? NOW WHAT?? Do I fear being attacked also IRL, too? Yeah. I think I have my bases covered...but there's no end to what someone can do... terrorist thrive on that fear.. the WHAT IFs of fear that go on inside a person's head. Just because the fear of being attacked HERE at PC has lessened some... doesn't keep me safe at home.

[pegasus]

I feel the sadness too.

((((((((((((((( Sky )))))))))))))))))

Share it with your T asap!

Thinking of you.

[(JD)]

T thinks I'm doing ok on self-care regarding the attacks here.. and my fear of attacks Sigh. I felt so pathetic having to discuss antics of people on a WEBSITE to work through a bit of my PTSD triggers! I haven't had to before, really, as it was all "virtual." It needs to continue to be that, for me. sigh. TC!

[(JD)]

Holding my breath. Doing mindfulness.

[gardenergirl]

Hi Sky,
I had a similar reaction when I talked to my T once about stuff going on with another site. I felt pathetic, too. It wound up being useful in the end. I hope it's the same for you.

But you know, whatever is upsetting is upsetting, regardless of the context.

Glad you're practicing good self-care. I need to work on that myself.

gg

[(JD)]

Yes. I had to step back, and realize that these "members" are not here in my home, that no one knows who I am and where I am... that PC is generally a safe site...and what I react to is "JUST" words on my screen.

I stayed at PC to continue to work through my social skills' issues... and need to know that PC is a TOOL for me... a tool. That means I am in charge of how I use that tool. Having the mods' and admin's help to be able to stay and do that... by their curtailing any other non-supportive member.. that helps greatly. But all in all, it's still my job to keep me safe here. I am responsible for my posts, and what I try to say in being supportive. I'm still human, I make mistakes, err in a post, and have reactive feelings.

But, you know? Right now, knowing I'm safe for a bit, I'm doing ok!

[bearhugs]

Hi Sky
Listen i know what its like to have people lash out at you on a site. I am so sorry you have been through a rough time at PC. I want you to know that i am here for you just as so many people are here at PC. I know being online can be hard at times. Use PC as a tool okay. I am here for you and i hope you get better soon. I am thinking of you. Take good care and remember you can PM me any time. Bearhugs.