struggling

I haven't posted here in a long time. I have not been well. I'm in therapy and I just feel like I'm in this deep hole and I keep trying to crawl out and I can't. I guess I haven't been completely honest with my therapist. She's so nice I'm just scared to say what I'm thinking or what I'm going through. I feel so scared all the time. I don't know how to get through this bump. I'm trying so hard to stay positive. I called the crisis line and I couldn't even follow through with that...cause a man answered. I can't do this anymore. I'm so tired, I'm just ready to give up right now. I'm sorry. I just feel so desperate. I hope I make it through this one cause I don't feel strong enough this time around. I'm sitting at the very edge of my last straw.

((haier))),

Oh hun, I totally understand where you are right now, but I promise you can get past this, I do know it is very tiring and confusing too. But please hang on and just slow down and take this one day at a time for a while, allow yourself some time to work on this.

I have just posted in my thread The Challenge about this stage and how hard it is and it was really the first time I could put it into words tbh. Know you are not alone and that you can truely get through this.

I plan on adding to my post, and talk about ways to look at things that will help take away that very "alone and frightened" place you are in right now. But I am on my way out to help my daughter move into a new place. So hang on, and do whatever feels best to self sooth and relax.

Lots of patience and self care, this is the hard part of PTSD, but you can get through it, even if it doesn't feel like that right now.

(((Gentle Caring Hugs)))
Open Eyes

((( haier))) your doing a great thing here, coming here and slowly and hopefully
get that lost struggle feel away.

BIG Hugs, that are safe,

hi, I am Crew nice to meet you

hang in there what ever you do, hang in there!!!!