[OutofTune]

Anyone else have this problem?

[Open Eyes]

Well, PTSD can be very hard and if you feed into it, it can also be very "dibilitating".
You have to get help, and learn how "not" to feed into it, it is quite a challenge for a while, but you "can" slowly learn how to control it better and even overcome the PTSD strong and challenging "episodes" that are so confusing.

Do you have a therapist? It is important that you get help with this so you can work through it.

(((Hugs))))
Open Eyes

[OutofTune]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

Well, PTSD can be very hard and if you feed into it, it can also be very "dibilitating".
You have to get help, and learn how "not" to feed into it, it is quite a challenge for a while, but you "can" slowly learn how to control it better and even overcome the PTSD strong and challenging "episodes" that are so confusing.

Do you have a therapist? It is important that you get help with this so you can work through it.

(((Hugs))))
Open Eyes

I'm in the process of moving so therapy will have to wait. The problem I have is getting away from the people who caused my PTSD. Even when I move they'll be around, as I am financally dependent. It's a tough situation. I do plan on going to an intensive out patient program for group and individual therapy.

(((hugs)))

[Open Eyes]

(((OutofTune))),

Oh, I am sorry that you have to deal with that, I can relate to that problem as well.
I understand that "therapy" has to wait a bit, glad to hear you are still making plans to reach out to group therapy and outpatient. You need to keep yourself around others that understand PTSD, can validate you constantly and help you find ways to get a handle on dealing with the "PTSD episodes" that I am sure you struggle with as you are around people who caused all of this to happen to you.

In the meantime, you are welcome to come here and share and vent if you need support while trying to get by until you get into a therapy program. I recommend that you make sure you find someplace that is "safe" where you can go and have some down time and rest. It doesn't have to be a "big space" either, just something that you have that others respect as "your space".

Make sure you practice lots of "self care" and don't let these other people convince you that you are "the problem" or are somehow unworthy in any way. You can work through all of this and make gains on it. Make sure you take time to learn how to take time outs and self sooth instead of just assuming the "anxiety" and challenges are "uncontrolable" you actually "can" learn how to "calm them". Take some time and read through some of the threads here too, and read about some of the grounding methods you can learn to do as well.

Welcome to PC, lots of others here that are very nice and willing to listen and support you. Just remember that members are not always on, so if you do vent and dont get a reply right away, that only means that no one is on yet to see your thread/request for support. I know with PTSD not having a reply right away can feel like no one cares, that is not the case here, it just takes time sometimes for someone to see it ok?

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes

[OutofTune]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

(((OutofTune))),

Oh, I am sorry that you have to deal with that, I can relate to that problem as well.
I understand that "therapy" has to wait a bit, glad to hear you are still making plans to reach out to group therapy and outpatient. You need to keep yourself around others that understand PTSD, can validate you constantly and help you find ways to get a handle on dealing with the "PTSD episodes" that I am sure you struggle with as you are around people who caused all of this to happen to you.

In the meantime, you are welcome to come here and share and vent if you need support while trying to get by until you get into a therapy program. I recommend that you make sure you find someplace that is "safe" where you can go and have some down time and rest. It doesn't have to be a "big space" either, just something that you have that others respect as "your space".

Make sure you practice lots of "self care" and don't let these other people convince you that you are "the problem" or are somehow unworthy in any way. You can work through all of this and make gains on it. Make sure you take time to learn how to take time outs and self sooth instead of just assuming the "anxiety" and challenges are "uncontrolable" you actually "can" learn how to "calm them". Take some time and read through some of the threads here too, and read about some of the grounding methods you can learn to do as well.

Welcome to PC, lots of others here that are very nice and willing to listen and support you. Just remember that members are not always on, so if you do vent and dont get a reply right away, that only means that no one is on yet to see your thread/request for support. I know with PTSD not having a reply right away can feel like no one cares, that is not the case here, it just takes time sometimes for someone to see it ok?

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes

Words of wisdom! Especially the suggestion of a "me" spot. It makes my control freak helicopter parent suspicious when I spend time alone. He'll have to get over that. I'm not a kid anymore but I sure do get treated like one. I try to stay positive. It's tough with negative voices (hallucinations) taunting me. It's like reverting back to childhood, with bullies telling me I'm a fat piece of crap and reminding me of every traumatic experience I've ever had.

[Open Eyes]

Yes, but you can finally "overcome" that. I am not saying it is easy, I have had quite a challenge myself. You "will" eventually be able to self talk "over" these troubling memories. Another thing to look into that you may really get a lot out of is DBT. I have heard people say that they were really helped a lot with that. You can look it up on the net and see if there is anything offered in your area for that, often they have DBT workshops with groups.

Open Eyes

It doesn't happen often, but particularily when I get involved in new friendships/relationships, a lot of "stuff" I went through in my childhood and adolescence comes out and it can make me totally psychotic and delusional. All I can do is curl up in a ball with all the stuff going through my mind until it settles down by itself. It's a horrible feeling. And I agree with Open Eyes. DBT does help. It's a lot of work but it will help it you allow it to. The free amazon DBT class is at http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/dbtclass/.

[hanners]

Originally Posted by OutOfTune

Anyone else have this problem?

Yes. I'm curious, how long does your psychosis last when it's triggered? For the longest time, my psychosis would follow a trigger, and last no more than an hour. Back in August though, I got triggered and had psychotic episode that lasted two weeks, and my diagnosis was changed to schizoaffective disorder.

[OutofTune]

Originally Posted by hanners

Yes. I'm curious, how long does your psychosis last when it's triggered? For the longest time, my psychosis would follow a trigger, and last no more than an hour. Back in August though, I got triggered and had psychotic episode that lasted two weeks, and my diagnosis was changed to schizoaffective disorder.

My psychosis is 24/7. It never stops. The voices are a bit quiter when I am not around my family. I don't think my parents realize how much trauma they've caused me. I can't stop loving them no matter how bad it is for me.

I sort of diagnosed myself as schizoaffective (depressive subtype) but my doctors seem sure it's PTSD. I think it's a combo of many different conditions. I lost the lotto as far as health is concerned.

[Open Eyes]

(((OutOFTune))),

I felt like that too for a while, it completely exhausted me. However, I didn't hear voices or hallucinate, but I did experience unwanted and confusing flashbacks. I do recommend you get help for this as soon as you can though.

Open Eyes

[OutofTune]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

(((OutOFTune))),

I felt like that too for a while, it completely exhausted me. However, I didn't hear voices or hallucinate, but I did experience unwanted and confusing flashbacks. I do recommend you get help for this as soon as you can though.

Open Eyes

Sorry to hear this happened to you. I never had flashbacks until the psychosis set in. Now my auditory hallucinations do nothing but remind me of the trauma inflicted on me by family and grade school bullies. The voices make sure I don't forget. It's possibly the result of years of denial. I spent a lot of time doing drugs to block out bad memories. It finally caught up to me.

[Engima]

Originally Posted by OutofTune

Anyone else have this problem?

Yes, I have always known that I had PTSD. But last year I found out that my psychosis was triggered by my PTSD.

When I last went to a doctor, they took away my bipolar diagnosis and replaced it with psychosis. Now I am PTSD/Psychosis. I felt so bad because even the doctor was saying that this diagnosis was confusing for him.

Now I am determine to get rid of the psychosis on my own. But to do that I have to conqure what happened to me as a child. This is a challenge, and I came to this site as a starting point.

[red77]

You may benefit from Dr. Daniel Amen's research. He is a world renown neuroscientist/psychiatrist. You can find his info under amenclinics on the web. I am in the process of using it myself. Hope it helps you!