continuous fear and stress

I have posted the beginning of the latest threat to my security, in the survivors of abuse forum...

But I wanted to say part of it here. I suffer from PTSD because of the treatment (and lack of) from the insurance ***** doctors and unethical lawyers.

How am I supposed to be able to learn to file abuse away when it is ONGOING>>>>>?????????

The very latest (and this has gone on 17 years since my injury) is this:
the opposition says I missed appointments that I made and agreed to, when there is no way I would have even spoken to anyone about going to this quack doctor. (Fuller story under other forum.)

NOW, i feel because I combated the lies, the opposition has decided, on their own, to deny my migraine medicine. It is illegal for them to provide something and then withdraw it without a judges ok...but they never get punished, so they don't care... THIS medicine is more money than I can afford to pay... and my migraines are getting worse (8-10 a month, and requiring two doses each... pills are like $15 each.)

I am ready to wipe it all out... myself. This is what they want, my attorney told me... if I suicide, they wont have to pay anything for me anymore. I am so tired of this game they play with me I wish I could just let go and let them win.

...I can misspeak like the best of us

Hey SkyB
Please don't givein to these idiot people, Keep fghting, so you wl show them howseriousall this is. Then you can make them pay up.
I a not to familiar with the USA laws, but In Canada they try to see howlong you can last in order to see if you really do need he help, thy are slimmy tat way.
I just recently gt tred down from the Canadian Pension Plan Disability and even with a Psyc. report, they still said No!!, so now I have to Appeal through a Lawyer and he sad it could take up to two years., which is going to cost me more money than I have.
I a so stressed out, because I need money for Bills and Meds.
It seems like it is a form of abuse all over again.
Anyhow just try and hang in there o-kay, Your in my thoughts
Take Care
Donna

Hi SkyBDark,

I don't know what migraine med you're on, but some of them are available on patient assistance programs. Your doctor would need to help you apply, but then you can get them for free through the manufacturer if you are on a low income. I take Maxalt and have gotten them that way in the past, and I would imagine other migraine medications may be available that way also.

I'm so sorry for the difficulties you're having getting and receiving the care and medications you need!

Hang in there,
ErinBear

Thanks y'all ... just heard back from attorney... and then pharmacist. No reason given but my Imitrex script is ready for pick up! They cancelled 2 other meds the same way, but never approved them again. So this time, somebody said something right and I get my meds!

So now I 'm trying not to think about what they will pull next...

thanks again. fortunately it worked out.

...I can misspeak like the best of us

Hi SkyBDark,

If you ultimately have trouble with this courtcase, or decide to go a different direction or whatever....getting medications through the manufacturer's patient assistance programs (if you're eligible) may give you more security. Your doctors would have to help you apply, and you'd have to fill out some forms, but it may be a more reliable source than what you're experiencing presently. I would be willing to bet that Imitrex is available that way. If you're on other medications, they might be available through patient assistance programs as well.

Take care,
ErinBear

Hi SkyB
I am glad to hear you got your meds, they sound like real nasty people you are trying to deal with.It must be so frustrating, I can't imagine what you are going through.
Hear is a hug((((((((((hug))))))), hope yu are doing better and hope these people stop abusing you, we all have gone through to much already
Some people play on abusing those of us who are already having a hard time.
Take Care my best wishes are for you.
Donna

Tks for your replies... really!

Well, I have a brain scan scheduled this afternoon. I tried to work through the MRI tube thing with my psychologist... it's the latest technology and the "tube" is only 3' long, so only 1 1/2' either end of my head... but while trying to see if I can do this, I had a flashback of when I was trapped under the shelter that collapsed on me...

And today when I went to lunch, there was the guy that has taken photos of me eating for the ins. co... I didn't see him take any this time, but he had his camera phone in his hand when I noticed him.

I am doing the brain scan without the disability ins. co... just to see. IF it only shows brain trauma from the injury, then they are getting the bill from me... but to know they are following me today is discomforting.

to be continued, unfortunately...

...I can misspeak like the best of us

<font color=purple>So I reply to myself. The latest in my endeavor to fight the enemy: I insisted that I could NOT possibly go to mediation in the morning because I don't function in the morning.

My eyes can't see because of the loosened gel inside them from the head trauma, float to the top... and I'm required to sleep on my back.

The pain is so bad when Iwake, I hate that I have once again awaken. It takes all I can do to wait till the pain meds begin to work from the 4 hour of sleep/reprieve... (but that has changed too since I quit the meds)

I have ptsd... anxiety, depression... and anytime something new is being done the next day, I GET NO SLEEP the night before...

and so, how would I possibly argue for myself... not counting the traffic I absolutely have panic within... in the morning.

SO? My attorney's office called me ONE MORNING. Said, you WILL agree to mediate at 8 am right? No. I'm not functional in the mornings. Ok, but, he's a good mediator. You will come at 8am RIGGHT?

Ok. I'll try. NO, YOU WILL? I'll try. Forget this. I have plans. All I have to do is settle... and die. I will have won twice.

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I'm really worried about you. What can I do to help? I wish that I could make it better, but I feel so powerless.

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