sadism connection?

I am a fourteen yearold, professionally diagnosed with PTSD in connection with a specific group of people (my family). I have powerful sadistic urges with some frequency and was wondering if this is a common characteristic of the disorder.

PTSD besides clinical depression was our first dx. Do you have voices in your brain?

no, just these thoughts, dreams and flashbacks...classic symptoms of PTSD...but I have not talked to my T about them because I think she might react badly to them...I have never heard of a correlation between PTSD and sadism...just wondering if I am completely certifiable.

Welcome. So glad you are here!

It is common for an abused person to identify with their abuser and have thoughts or acting out doing to others what was done to them. Please talk about what you are experiencing, as everything is important. It is only your job to talk, not to edit or decide if somethng should be talked about; I find this relieving and I hope you do too.

ECHOES

I use to have maschoistic fantasys...had them as a child also...would base all my games around me being kidnapped and abused....this is what was happening in a lessor degree in real life so I was acting it out but i inserted "enjoyment" into my games and fantasys as this was the only way I could maintain any control over my outside life...

Yes, I think almost anyone who has been hurt in some way has thoughts of hurting back or hurting someone "weaker," etc. as a way of "understanding" and controlling the way one feels/felt and earlier situations.

I worked with/for (I was part-time) a woman and her boss would yell at her and she'd come in and yell at me and then apologize much later but I told her it was fine if she treated me like the "dog" (as in going home and kicking the dog because you can't kick your boss) since I had nothing at stake working for the company, was only part-time and didn't have to work, etc., didn't like many of the people so I didn't take things seriously/personally. I both understood when she yelled at me that it wasn't "about" me and I also felt superior and/or literally didn't care so I was happy to be helpful if I could give her a relief valve of sorts (as I liked her okay).

When one is a young child there aren't a whole lot of ways/means to cope yet because one hasn't learned them which is why when you get older things don't work anymore; one is physically older but only has "primitive" ways of dealing with impossible situations and once one gets to be a certain age, the situations get broader and people differently motivated but the abused person gets "stuck." The "natural" hurt-back impulse and the learned, hurt smaller/younger/weaker than you are, would be about all one consistently abused when younger would have/know?