From upset/anxiousness to complete calm???

I am really trying to figure out what is going on in my world and have a few things that I have always assumed were one thing but now I wonder.
Whenever I have gotten very upset about something, I can go from various levels of upset/sadness (even complete bawling) to instant calm. I have always assumed I was just had a great ability to calm myself but as I was laying here in that 'calm' place after being upset I realized that when I am in that 'moment', I don't want anything. I don't want to be. I was watching a tv program I wanted to get into and didn't care anymore and shut it off. Laying here wanting to go to sleep in my 'calm' I realized I felt more like a shell then something calm. I decided to come post and see what people thought.
Does that sound like I should shut up and be happy I can calm myself that easily or is something else going on here I need to let my therapist know about? I do NOT want to create things that are not here, but new to therapy I don't want to tell him I am fine with emotion and can calm down easily when upset if that is not really what is going on. Insights?

If you are in therapy for PTSD, you should tell your therapist what you have discussed here, a good PTSD therapist will understand those challenges and help you with them.
You do not help yourself by not saying anything IMHO.

Welcome to PC and the PTSD forum.

((Hugs))
OE

Well I can't necessarily go from upset to calm very quickly but my ptsd symptoms have gotten much worse lately and I have noticed things like no longer feeling happy when I hear my favorite songs, not wanting to listen to music at all, or watch tv, or read, or go out, etc. I don't want to talk to anyone. I miss my family but I cringe when the phone rings, yet i miss them so much! I don't feel much of anything except guilt and shame. I used to love to sew and make things now I have absolutely no interest. I just want to work all the time. The only thing that gives me any joy is trying to help other people and I hope that doesn't go away too. It's like I've given up on myself. I wish it wasn't so. I hope you get your happiness back and I definitely think you should talk to your therapist about that if you feel like you can.

Did you calm down or ratchet up into opiate release?

Teacake, I am not sure what that looks like.

What seems strangest about it to me is that it is like flipping a light switch when it happens. Not a gradual 'calming' but an instant 'everything is gone and ok now' sensation. But then I am just sort of 'there' for a lack of a better way to say it. It isn't like I am calm and going about my day as usual now. I am sort of just hanging out somewhere inside. Not sure how to explain it, that is what makes it difficult.