[troubled1]

I went to see a psych Dr and she seems to think I have Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome... I have nightmares alomst all night nightly!! Alot of things trigger these and I am not sure where to go from here i just thought I was depressed and needed Anti-Depressants now I have someone telling there is something totally differant going on...
I don't have a therapist i am afraid to drag up everything I have been through and survived in this way through by pushing it down instead of facing it in my waking hours... I feel if I only have To deal with it in my dreams I should be ok but Not anymore I am a survivor of Sexual Abuse from my Father and Step-mother, As well as physical abuse from my step-mother... I grew up to date an Alcoholic just like my dad and an abuser as well.. I have finally got away from those types of people in my personal life but .. They are still in my dreams, My memories, Certain things or smells horrify me.. I get really wierd... I subjected my children to the last real jerk I will ever date and he hurt them ( sexual abuse ) I am going to trial for that if they will ever quit with the continuences.... One of the other triggers for nightmares... Anyway enough is enough sorry for rambling... troubledone

[alm15]

I know being given a diagnosis caqn be upsetting. The good news is that you can recover from PTSD. It takes time and work but my life got SOOOO much better when I started pulling up the memories and talking about them. Find a really good therapist. Find someone who has been doing t for a while but keeps up with the latest trends. Find someone who believes you can recover, because you can! The other really cool thing about working through my memories was that when I did, the phobias associated with them either quelled or went away entirely. I'm sure it feels like a blow but believe it or not it can be a really [posative thing. Now that you know what the problem is you can heal. I'm totally with you on the nightmare stuff. I know I need to go to bed tonight but I'm afraid to. The nightmares come and go now, right now they're lurking.
Good luck to you! If you can find a therapist who specializes in PTSD that would be great. One resource might be the local Veteran's Administration. Try to remember that it will get better! Annie

[troubled1]

Thank you for the encouragement ... I will continue to come here!! And I hope to get better and away from these nightmares..

[Butterfly_Faerie]

Hey Honey, so glad to see you've finally posted (it's DA)

IF this is the case hon, with PTS, then it's something that definatly needs to be treated, don't feel like you don't want to drag them out, holding it in will just make the situation worse for you, as well as not dealing with it. The longer you do not deal with it the harder it will be. I know from first had, even though I roughly didn't even bring up stuff that happened to me with my pschiatrist, i've now realized, that alot of low self esteem, low confidence, fears, nightmares triggers etc were caused by him, so once I dealt with it my PTSD is pretty much gone, I do still get body memories and triggers etc, but I can live with that. I can live with the fact that yes it did happen, and I REGRET that it happened, and just saying that and realizing that I don't have to feel guilt or shame, I don't have to keep living in the past, but I can live with regret. That was the turning point for me. My psychiatrist told me yesturday that I use to be plauged with this, but I've over come it.

I feel empowered.

Usually with PTSD, anxiety, and depression can follow and be part of that as well, it was for me, especially the depression. You are dreaming and remember stuff is because you are ready to start dealing with it. Triggers and flashbacks believe it or not is a part of healing, even though it's really scary, you need to heal yourself, and you haven't let yourself do that... Got to start taking care of you.. then you'll notice the warning signs more cleary about who not to date etc. You will have a better perspective on things, it does get easier when you start therapy.

You know girl what I went through, you saw my posts on Broken Spirits, I wish you could have gotten back on there. I have had some pretty postive posts, and for me to actually say that I don't have PTSD to the point of depression and fear is HUGE for me. I know you can get past this, hang in there honey, I hope you got my email from a week or so ago.

(((((((((Trouble1/TroubleDone)))))))))))

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>

Troubled1;
Listen to everything Sundance has to say; she is the queen of all things "[censored] up" that we're struggling with; hang in there; I don't like labels, but the more I study about PTSD I learn so much about myself that I didn't know before and understand why I do some of the things I do. you're in good company

[Butterfly_Faerie]

Listen to jonalexea hon.. hahah very wise that person

Hang in there, the nightmares will go away in time once you've dealt with stuff you've been through. Hang in there.

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>

you see troubled; I'm pretty wise when it comes to advice, just an idiot when it comes to following my own advice. Kind of like when they say that "A lawyer who represents himself has a fool for a client" it's kind of like that...I'd be all "healed" like my wife wanted me (soon to be ex-wife) if I would just follow my own advice. LOL-
Hang in there,
J

[Butterfly_Faerie]

It definatly is a hard road to follow, and you'll have to follow it if you want to get better. Yes you will hit walls, but when you do you pound those suckers down. Your a strong chickie, i've known you for awhile and I know you'll be ok, just takes time... and ALOT of paitents.

You know i'm here for you as always.

I do sometimes what jonalexa does, I don't always follow my own advice, I do more now this time around and it makes me feel great.

Hang in there

((((((troubledone))))))

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>

[troubled1]

((((hugs))))) Jon and Sundance
Thank you both for the encouragement it has been difficult starting at a new site and I am so grateful for you sundance for helping me find a few good ones...
Jon you have helped me feel more comfortable and I thank You... Mj and a few others are really nice as well and I enjoy the time we are together..
Troubled1

Thanks for the hugs; I hope you continue to feel more comfortable here; I hope that you'll keep in touch and hang in there.
J

[inkblot]

{{{{{{{{{{troubled}}}}}}}}}} I have PTSD, too. I grew up with several occasions of abuse--physical, sexual, and verbal. I came out of it okay and learned to trust again, only to marry someone who would sexually abuse me again (T's say marital rape). He was also physically abusive. I know how emotional this problem can be. I found that I can literally be afraid of my own emotions when it gets bad. Posting here helps, as does going into chat. Look into places for therapy, though. You will need (and I'm sure want) to talk about what's going on.

[(JD)]

sorry for my absence.. been triggered myself on a number of levels and it's just feeling overwhelming...

I've had PTSD for 17 years now, due to a traumatic injury (at what was "work")...

it doesn't really matter how you get it, it doesn't matter what level of trauma one has in comparison to another... the beast is bad.

It is "good" to see all of you here posting... when I first came to this site, it seemed NO ONE posted in this forum, 'cept me and was I ever lonely here!

what I say to you, you will probably need to say back to me... since nothing I do ever works for long... life isn't worth living when it's only filled with reactions to triggering and misinterpretations.. etc

ooopss sorry didn't mean to make this post about me.

If your T knows what he's doing, then before too terribly long you will be able to experience fewer nightmares and such... I don't know if they will ever really go away for good... it can get better. (But sometimes better is still bad.)

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>

[Butterfly_Faerie]

Troubled1- You know i'm here, I am really happy that you joined this site, I hope you will find a ton of support here.



<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>

[troubled1]

Thank You All,
The help you give is appreciated..... I will be posting more tonight after I calm down alot... troubled1

[Butterfly_Faerie]

You do what is best for you my dear friend. I'll either see you on here or on MSN.

Hope you are doing ok today.

*hugs*

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>