i'm on these meds that make me kind of dopey. i evade sleep cos i hallucinate and didn't know where i was the other morning when my husband tried to wake me up. when i do sleep i have terrible dreams. i wake up feeling 8 years old and scared and anxious and 'he' is still in my thoughts all the time just about. i seem to go from one disaster to another and im at the end of my tether. i cant go back to doc he wants me to give these tablets a chance, i ought to just bed down at the surgery the amount of times i've been. i had a letter from the university pdoc who wont treat me, local psychiatric unit wont treat me until i have my meds sorted. i feel i am going in circles. i've started not going out at all, the phone makes me jump, my sons guitar playing is screeching at me like it's trying to drive me insane my daughter stays awayand my husband is only happy when i'm in bed or he's at work. my mum stopped calling, my friend called me once.i cant call anyone anymore. i think i've lost the plot i cant take anything else on board i cant smile i can cry, plenty of thatwhich i spose is good.i'm a mess and a waste of space at the moment i'm even wasting your time through self ugly pity.
ugly ugly ugly.i serve no purpose anymore.
wtf.

[(JD)]

((((jinny)))) I'm so sorry the meds are affecting you this way... and I'm glad you are giving them a good chance to help you, going through the side effects for the time being. You can also post in the drug forum and ask about the medication and how it's affecting you...maybe it goes away sooner rather than later? (You would need to say what med, what dose and how long you've been taking it, and when you take it during the day etc, I think, for someone with knowledge to help you there.)

Please know that it won't always be this way. Assure yourself and your husband that you are giving this a good try, even though no one likes the results yet. (It isn't like you choose to be this way!) Thank your spouse for helping you through this (and maybe it will encourage him to do better?)