PTSD

In 1982 I was unwillingly drugged and raped by a group of my fellow students. One of the people involved was a girl I had fallen in love with, someone I trusted, adored, and I thought she would be my wife. I stayed in contact with her for 10 years after that night, as a matter of fact her picture hangs on the wall in front of me has I write this stuff. She had attempted to suduce me several times, she always had pot or some other drug she wanted me to try, but I don't do drugs. I would ask her to leave, yet I always let her back in to my life. She was physically abusive, at times, and I knew she used herion often. I wanted to safe her from all that. It is 25 years latter, I'm 49, unmarried, depressed, and I want to understand why she did that to me. I am ashamed to admit that I sat in my mother's house for 12 years and did not do anything. No job, no life, I just sat and waited to understand something. No answer came and I went to graduate school. The only way I got in was by the grace of God; I have a MS in pysical science with a 3.25 GPA, alot better than the 2.29 I had as an undergrad. By the way I went to the police, and they just laughed at me and joked about it, so did the folks at that towns hospital. I was out for three days. They probably used GHB and they injected me with some other drug, at least that what she told my mother back in 1999, when she called out of the blue and confessed to my mother.

Welcome to PC protector!

I'm sorry to hear about the terrible things that happened to you. I'm sure you will find some really good folks here that will listen and support you as you work through things. Keep reading and posting....it can be very helpful to know that you are not alone in the feelings you are dealing with.

Take good care of YOU!

Hugssss
J

Hi. I don't understand your poll

I believe you. Sorry the ignorant authorities were unable to help you.

I believe you too. Men get raped, and people don't understand it, but it doesn't change what happened. That must really make it difficult and complicated to deal with.

drugged and raped

and she's abusive

so you want to understand why she did that to you
- is it possible that she doesn't even know why herself?

think of her age and activities - was she a person who was very much in control of herself?
I'm not excusing her/their behaviour, nor am I dismissing or minimizing it. Just trying to consider the reasons why she would do this? Is it possible that they've done this to others?

{I didn't understand your poll}