I am having a really hard time right now in my life, I feel so abandoned and sad, I was given up at birth and the people that adopted me were abusive, Every thing is all secretive, I met my biological mother but she refuses to let me see my family tree, She has a son that she kept but gave me up, Is any one else adopted and do you feel the empty feelings like I do, Why am I a secret like I don't exist to either of these family's, I also suffer severe ptsd

[seesaw]

(((Rainne)))

I don't know what you're going through right now as I'm not adopted but I imagine that it must be terrible emotional and upsetting. I'm sure you have all sorts of complex feelings you are dealing with. I hope you are seeing a T to help sort it all out.

Seesaw

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( Rainne )))))))

I only just read this. I wasn't adopted (at least I don't think so) but there were secrets to the extreme in the "family" of origin. The family had a hard time showing love and that is putting it kindly And abuse which I will not go into . Anyone would have trust issues being "raised" in such an "environment".

I hope you're seeing a good T... A Good T can really help

[Prism Bunny]

I have no idea what you may be going through as an adopted child, but I am sorry that your life has been so rough from the start. The main thing I did growing up was to make an inner circle of friends with people that cared for my well-being, which included neighbors. Anyone that shows support and love can be your family.

There is no excuse for abuse and negligence to any soul, and it breaks my heart knowing children continue to suffer just for the fact that they exist. As someone who survived an abusive, neglectful family, I just want to give you a hug.

I just started seeing a therapist, She deals with trauma so I hope she can help me, Thank you every one

[Gus1234U]

i know someone else who has many of your experiences, Rainne. i'll try to remember to bring this post to their attention, and hope you find a way to process all this stress~

[Kick]

Hi Rainne,

I am also adopted and was abused by my adoptive family. I completely empathize with you. Have you read THE PRIMAL WOUND by Nancy Verrier? I highly recommend it as well as her companion book, Coming Home to Self. It is very important to allow yourself to grieve the many losses of adoption. Hugs to you.

I was born/adopted in 1958. Found my birthmother in 1982. She wound up rejecting me again and now, at 86, no longer acknowledges my existence. I have, however, forged a strong relationship with her son, 11 years my junior. He is lovely.

Wishing you peace & good luck,
Kick

[Monarch Butterfly]

I'm sorry you had to endure the abuse. I'm not adopted but I can imagine how painful it must feel with what you described. I hope therapy will help with the trauma. You are deserving of love, respect and kindness