Terrible nightmare

I had a terrible nightmare last night and couldn’t fall back to sleep for two hours.

The dream had some vivid moments but I forgot some of it. My abuser was there. He was holding me hostage. He found out about my husband and wanted to rape me so I felt his pain. He raped me hard to the point where I was in serious physical pain.

I remember telling him I was trying to call the police so every time he found a way to make me in pain and miserable. He sent people after me to make sure i was miserable if he couldn’t be in the room. One time he left, I was able to get ahold of the police but he came back. I told him just rape me and get it over with. He said no I’m not in the mood for sex. So I had to sit there waiting for him to be in the mood which made me feel more powerless. I just remember feeling like I kept needing to run but couldn’t get away from him no matter how hard I tried.

I finally woke up in real life feeling so powerless, trapped, and empty. My dog was in my bed and I think he knew I had a nightmare. My dog hugged me for the rest of the night. I still sort of have that lingering scared feeling today.


I think I had the dream because my mom told me she saw him and he was angry at her. What does this mean? Could this actually happen? Hugs please?

Sorry you had such a terrible nightmare. Remind yourself that you are safe and what you experienced in the nightmare is about your past and is not happening now.

Maybe it would help to visualize a different ending to your dream to help lessen that feeling of being powerless. Sometimes I think my mind wants a resolution to things in my past and it can help me to close my eyes and imagine a safer version of the nightmare.