just wondering...

Well i've had my share of traumatic stuff happening in the past including s.abuse, physical abuse and losing sight in one eye.. and all until pretty recently...

But thats not really my question. I know SS mentioned ptss and depression... And I know even my brother mentioned im looking depressed lately..

But I was wondering how much is ptsd and how much is depression? How can you tell?

No, I don't have a t or psych. I was put on this list for something because we thought we were in permanent fosterfamily but now we're on the move again anyway (wich doesnt help much either) so not for a while I guess.
And I don't mind just the idea of having to talk to some adult alone in a room scares the hell out of me...

And the idea of meds scare me too.. brings back memories of being forced to take drugs.. and i want to be able to wake up when something happens instead of some kind of meds induced coma..

I do get way to much nightmares and flashbacks and panicattacks to just handle it all alone though..

But I was just wondering... How can you tell what is what.. and what can you do.. yourself? Without meds.. without t's..

Blue

Lucas, I know your situation is hard. I don't have a T either, nor am I taking meds because I hid my diagnosis from my family and friends.

Did SS explain to you the difference between PTSS and Depression? I think she/he should. You can also search it on Google..

It all comes back to oneself, really. We have to help ourselves in the end no matter what. I know sometimes, you're helpless and you can't even help yourself, but you have no one to turn to. ;[ That's hard. But draw strength from other people, like your brother.

Hope you're coping better ;]

<font color="purple">Clandestine</font>

Thanks for the reply
Yes, i have a basic understanding of what ptss and depression are
But also they have things in common i think
and like when i feel down is that because of the nightmares and triggers and stuf - so part of the ptsd..
Or is it's completely own thing - depression..
Well i was just wondering about this stuff - i guess it does not really matter though

I almost feel bad for feeling this way though, after all he's at home now and in ways I do feel better because of it... But still feel bad.. worse then used to be. It feels like I let him down though he's finally at home from the hospital and I can't even be happy - he doesnt need a depressed brother on top of his health struggles right now..

Blue

Perhaps it's both ptss and depression?
Lucas, you really can't blame yourself for feeling that way. For one thing, you're stressed out of thinking about A LOT of things.. I admire you for being mature at a young age, and for standing up for your brother, despite all that's happened.

What if distract yourself from feeling that way? Like bond with your brother, play together or something? That way, he'll be reminded more of your fun times together rather than seeing you worried and blah. ;]

<font color="purple">Clandestine</font>

i'm not mature .. just more mature then most kids my age maybe i dunno
if i could just distract myself.. thats the problem! I come in chat and try to joke around as if to joke it all away and well .. not wanting to be sound depressed all the time.. so i joke around to cover it up. Not that I dont like joking around in chat with people I do like it. But sometimes its a cover i guess. an act
And i can't really hide it from my brother anyway he'd know what im trying to do right away... but yes... i'll try to think of some stuff to do together.. could use a laugh

Blue

like watching soccer games together in this europe cup championship is fun