Have to testify sometime. Have to speak. Make the selective mute with PTSD testify in his rape case. Why can't I just write it down. Why do they have to make me be so... detailed

Stupid urge to visit my brother in jail too... why do I feel obligated to visit him then so angry the next... ugh ugh ugh. He's dirty and bad but then why do I say I have to visit him.

Nightmares won't stop. I look around my house and I have presents from them from when we were friends. Want to smash them up into a million pieces.

I don't care that one of them is away visiting family... I'm still scared as hell.

But I keep getting those feelings of self-blame and extreme sadness... used to that... but then I get these sudden outbursts of such rage and anger. I feel so conflicted. Should I be sad? Angry?

Feelings are ok, whatever you're feeling. You have every right to feel sad and angry and scared at the same time. At least that's what I believe.

Sorry you're having such a hard time.

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We are all here for you, I wish I could give some advice but I don't believe I am in the right place to be giving any.
Stay safe and take care friend, I am always here if you need to talk.

Silver

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