The good news is the original cancerous tumor in her lung that they targeted has shrunk a little. Very little.

The bad news is there are two very suspicious nodules that have gotten bigger.

She can't get a biopsy done because it's too risky where she only has the one lung.

It's obviously inoperable due to the risk.

They put her on a three week regimen of antibiotics because there is also inflammation. After that she will have another scan.

Death / impending death / suffocation / hospitals are big triggers for me, some of you know why. I am trying very hard not to go into the gloom.

Thanks for listening.

[Angel_of_the_Past]

Hugs and prayers-Angel

(((orange))))))))))))))))))))))))
My very dear friend
all as i can say is i will be here with you
i understand what you are going threw
If you go into the gloom I will hold your hand
If you go into the gloom I will try to pull you back out
If you go into the gloom I will wait till you are done
If you go into the gloom I will be here with kleenxe
If you go into the gloom You will always be my friend
Please know I am with you
with all my heart i understand
So sorry you have to go threw this
muffy

[Christina86]

(((((((((((((Orange_Blossom & mom))))))))))))))))))

I'm sorry you. If you need to talk at all, you know where to find me, ok?

I hope the antibiotics help. Hugs and prayers.

[katheryn]

(((((((((((((orange)))))))))))))))

also here to listen when needed

[Justgiving]

((((((((((((Orange_Blossom)))))))))))

Thanks for the hugs everyone.

[nowheretorun]

(((Orange))))) you are in my thoughts.. i wish the best for you always

[bchlyn]

(((((iorange blossom))))) you and your mom will be in my thoughts and prayers... lyn

[Kiya]

((((((((((((((Orangeblossom)))))))))))))))))

Don't go into the gloom - sending you LOTS of light!!!!



Kiya

[allthegirls6]

orange,

its very scary and i know how bad you will all feel. If there was somthing we could do we would be over there in a shot. But we are sending you cuddles from every single one of us.

Thank you all for being here. I was just telling T today how alone I feel dealing with all this because who do I turn to for help? My dead family? They already bailed out!

It's so complicated because of my relationship with my mother. I have been the parent to her since I was a little girl, yet she has a sharp tongue and is very critical of me which makes me want to back off. Then I feel guilty because she may not be around long and here I am feeling sorry for myself when I should be rising to the occassion and being there for her 24/7.

I will never be the daughter she wanted me to be and she will never be the mom I needed. But we've managed to get through some difficult times before and I'm sure we'll be able to do it again.

I am doing my best to support her. That's all I can do.

I come here and see the support from all of you and I'm not feeling so alone. You guys bring tears to my eyes. Thanks for being here.

(((((orange)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
You were the best daughter you could be...You were you
Given all you delt with
You were perfect.....
I was never good enough either..i understand
sorry did not want to bring me into it

You are the one supporting her
We will all stand by you
will walk with you threw this the best we all can
at pc
never leave you..
You are the best
((((((((((((Orange))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((((((((((( Orange Blossom ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Thanks everyone. I can't tell you how much I appreciate your responses.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((( Orange_Blossom ))))))))))))))))))

(((( Fuzzy ))))

[skeksi]

This is very hard, but you are definitely not alone. (((Orange )))

[bchlyn]

orange... my t tells me that the reason my sons feel safe to blame me for their problems... is because i am the one person who will always be their for them... that makes it even more hurtful in many ways... maybe that's part of what is going on... she knows you will always be their for her... sounds like you did more then try your best... sounds to me as if you did your best... take gentle care...lyn

[SerenitysWave]

(((((orange_blossom and mom)))) sending you some positive thoughst and prayers....

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

Hugs for everyone.

[CedarS]

((((((((((((Orange Blossom)))))))))))

((( CedarS )))

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((Orange)))))))))))) I just saw this. I'm so sorry you're having to go through all of this right now. Please take care of yourself as best you can with all the stress. You're a good daughter Orange. We will support you as best we can. PM me if you want to.