[skymonk]

I've been accused of sending a hate e-mail to a mutual friend of my bf&I's. The e-mails are deleted&she couldn't even tell me what they said except that she was trying to break me&my bf up. She also said that I sent a chain e-mail about friendship following the one w/accusations. My bf&I have been having many problems because of my PTSD. He yells a lot at times&that's one of my triggers. I don't think I ever sent these e-mails. There's no way to prove whether I did or didn't or even the content. The e-mails were supposedly sent in August&I talked to her on the phone once in September because I forgot her b-day&she wanted to know why I hadn't sent her a card. The conversation wasn't inflammatory&I thought it was just another of our typical conversations-nothing wrong about it. I have no ill feelings for this person&have never said or written any of the things I'm accused of saying. I've asked my Dr&my chaplain about this...is it possible for me to have lost time&done it during some lost time? Both said "No". My bf says that he believes me&her-he can't be doing that because we're saying opposite things. I think my bf told her I was crazy&did it to calm the waters. He's now telling me that things are almost OK&not to worry about it. I don't trust either of them now. Has anyone heard of this happening w/PTSD people? My bf says he loves me&believes me, but I have my reservations. I'm really paranoid right now-I feel like I'm walking on eggshells all of the time because there's always something I say or do that gets my bf yelling at me. He always says that I yelled at him 1st, but I don't think I did. I was trained as a kid to never yell. It's not always that my bf&I have problems, there are lots of good times, but lately I'm always on edge waiting for the bomb to drop&this accusation hasn't helped anything. Can someone PLEASE HELP!

[katheryn]

im sorry you are having problems like this, i dont know which email company you are with, but check your sent mail box, if you dont have one see if you can set one up just for your piece of mind, have a look in DiD and see if you can find anything that would be similer
http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=30

i know my hubby had lost time recantly he wrote about in health, one paticular time he wrote a poem and doesnt remember writing it , its longer than his normal poems

http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=78234

im not saying you did or didnt do this but make precaustions so you cant have her say this again without evididence

[chalmette70043]

Skymonk. I can tell you from my experience i have lost alot of time. There is so much i dont remember. And what i do remember is spotty.

Sometimes someone will mention something and i say that didnt happen. They tell me yes it did and you were there.

It drives me nuts alot cause i cant remember stuff. Especially whole weeks at a time.

Hope this helps
chalmette

[skymonk]

I don't know what to think except that apparently it has happened to several of you or someone you know. My Dr&chaplain assured me that it's not happening. It may sound strange, but my chaplain is an intuit&he "read" me& couldn't feel any ill will in me even when I was thinking about the situation. He said she was BSing. I really don't know. I looked in my sent mail file&nothing was there or in the trash. So I guess I'll just ride it out&know that I didn't do anything intentionally, if at all. I really don't care if my bf believes me-I know the truth&God knows the truth&that's about it. PS Thanks for all of the replies. PC is so great!

[Greg77733]

Hello Skymonk, I can half answer your question. I will lose 4 or 5 hrs. every once in a while. The part I can't answer is, is it ptsd. I do have ptsd and a couple of others,but I don't know which does what. I cansay this, between all it makes for a messed up head. L.O.L.

[(JD)]

There's an element of dissociation with PTSD. It could be you are doing this in a dissociated state. BTW, it is very difficult to "read" someone who is dissociative, the barriers can be that walled up/strong. He probably is only reading "you" in the present, non-dissociated state.

I would also check your sent file.

You can check your contact listing also, and remove them. Then when an email is sent, it will ask to add them to the list, and if they show up again, you'll have a hint.

Have the recipients reply and that will include the original email. Otherwise, forget about it.

TC